well, so this story takes place after the wedding in BD..so renesmee hasn't happened..this is just after the part Jacob returns from the wedding..hope you guys like it.
Chapter 1.
“Calm down man” said Seth again. He had said that same phrase over 8 times already, but I was still shaking.
“Jacob, she made her choice, she knows all the consequences of being with a vampire, you have got to calm down” Sam said, and I knew he was right, they all were. Bella had made her choice of being with a leech, she knows everything about his world, our world, but still, she is too blinded by love that she won’t see what the real thing is. She trusts him too much, she thinks its not dangerous to…do it with him. But we both know, Edward and I, that he could kill her in less than one second. That freaking leach would kill her, in their honeymoon, he would kill the love of my life!
I started shaking again, this time harder.
“Jacob!” yelled Quil “relax!”
I took a deep breath.
“Just leave me alone” I said taking everyone off me. They were all holding me tight, from my chest, my arms, my neck. So what if I turned into a werewolf now? We were already in La Push. “I’m gonna go for a walk, and please just leave me alone ‘kay?”
I shook Seth, who was still holding me from my chest and ran to the beach, a place where I could just think. Be alone.
I started walking, letting the water touch my bare feet, remembering when Bella and I used to walk holding hands in this beach, when she used to spend every single day here, when her cheeks would turn red every time I teased her, when the leech was gone and everything was so simple, being with her was so easy, so wonderful, but that seemed to have been ages ago, when Bella was more of a reality than a dream, when I actually thought I could be with her, when thinking of her didn’t cause any pain, only happiness.
I was walking to our tree, mine and Bella’s. I knew that going to that tree would make this so much harder, but I just needed to go there, like if that tree would somehow bring her back. But as I got closer to our tree, I saw someone sitting there, a girl.
It was Leah, she was wrapped like a ball, her arms around her legs and her face over her knees. She looked like she was crying.
“Leah?” I said.
“Go away Jacob” she whispered, her voice broke.
“What’s wrong?” I asked. Usually I would have done what she said, I would have left, because being with Leah was incredibly annoying. She only made everything worse, and specially in a time like this, for me, being with her would have been like suicidal. But, I just couldn’t leave her like this. She was crying like I’ve never seen her before. Not even when Sam left her.
“I really want to be alone now Jacob, let me be miserable alone”
“Maybe we could be miserable together, do you know where I come from?” I was trying to help her, remind her of my pain, so she would forget hers. Weird coming from me.
“From the wedding” she said.
“Yes, so believe me, no pain can compare to what I’m felling know, you can tell me”
“Ha. Yeah right. No pain. If you don’t remember Jacob, I went to Sam’s wedding too, as the maid of honor, I have the whole pack wanting me to go away, I have an annoying brother who only cares about leeches and now..” she stopped, and started crying. She couldn’t even breathe.
“Leah, what happened?” I said, getting closer to her.
“Emily….is….pregnant” she said in between sobs.
“Ohh..no Leah, I’m sorry” I whispered.
She put her face between her knees again, she didn’t like to be seen crying. She looked so different. She looked like a completely different Leah, more fragile, more human and less self centered. She looked like the Leah she was before, the beautiful Leah everyone in the tribe was dying to have. She looked like another of the girls, rather than one of the boys. Then, she took a deep breath and lowered her knees, so I could see all the tears, her eyes were closed.
Suddenly, I was hugging her, something I’ve never done before, I was comforting her. And I thought she would immediately get away from me, but she didn’t.
Instead, her arms surrounded my neck, and she started crying again, harder than before. She was so vulnerable.
“Leah, I’m sorry, I…” I didn’t know what to say. What would I have wanted someone to tell me when Bella chose Edward over me?
“I understand” I said “I know what it feels like, seeing the person you love go with someone else, marrying someone else, seeing everything you ever wanted just…vanish before your eyes, all your dreams, all your hopes..” now, it was me who was crying, just a couple of tears, I could feel all the pain again.
Leah backed away.
“what?” she whispered finally opening her eyes.
They were red and puffy for crying, darker than ever and they were glowing, but, what shocked me the most, was what was inside those eyes. All the sadness, the pain, she had purple bags under her eyes, she looked 20 years older, and somehow, she reminded me of Bella, the night Sam found her after Edward left her alone in the woods, she, just like Bella, was broken.
“ I understand, and you probably are the only one in the entire tribe who understand me too, who won’t say she made a choice bla bla bla..You know what it feels like” I tried to comfort her.
“Jacob, the pain you are going through is nothing compared to mine, I have to see them, every single day, being more in love than the day before, I have to see it through Sam’s eyes, I have to see, everything I’ve ever wanted becoming a reality in someone else’s life. She has Sam, she is normal, not a stupid freak, everyone likes her, not like me, that everyone wishes I would go away, and now, she is going to have a baby, something I want the most, but something I would never be able to have, because I’m a stupid werewolf , plus, you didn’t live as much with Bella as I did with Sam, so believe me, this is worst.” Tears fell down her face all the time, like they were never going to stop.
“yeah guess you’re right, but at least, you know what it feels like being…abandoned, or chosen over, you are the only one who knows” I whispered.
“yeah, you too” she said, looking at the ocean.
Suddenly I heard I howl, it was Sam.
“We have to go” I told Leah.
“Nah, you go, he is probably going to tell everyone the big news, please tell him I’m sick or something”
“’kay” I said
“Oh, Jacob, if you think about this conversation, you are so going to get hurt” she smiled “you know I don’t like people to see me like this, so, don’t think about it if you appreciate your safety”
“I was thinking the same thing” I smiled and turned around.
“Oh, Jacob…mmm.. thanks, for dealing with my pain while, well, you were having a hard time on your own” she smiled and looked down.
“No prob” I said and phased to hear Sam’s news.
