I thought it would be boundless,
hopeless as my broken skin.
But I am mended. We are ended.
You cannot sew my lips with a fist
or slam them shut with your own,
and I know you see me dripping.
Nightly I would dream of bearing
your children and wearing
your thick cheap ring.
I was jittery, checking my watch.
Now my fingers find yours, and are still.
No longer do I collapse on your welcome mat,
nor vomit upon your shoulder.
And bleed? But what is that?
I am no longer vodka-chested,
with my tongue within your stomach,
and my deflated, purpled skin.
Nor wishing for a child so I can be new.
No more a concubine, hollow and narrow,
but plumped and lined,
as I drift with knowledge.
I would love to hear your theories.
But darling, there is no time.
written: Thursday 21st December 2006, 10:24pm.
