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On the plus side, writing my climax is going okay, but a couple of days ago I thought the climax would be too weak and now I'm like, "LOL WHAT IS EVEN GOING ON RIGHT NOW EVERYTHING IS GOING CRAZY CAN WE PLEASE STOP THE ACTION NOW" so let's just say that I am pleasantly confused... but also, seriously, how is my character supposed to survive that?

I was looking through book 3 for something and I came across this...

The Ticketmaster said, "But when you are my ferryman, this will no longer torment you. I will clear your memories. You will no longer remember who you are."

And I forget if I wrote this line intentionally (writing for the Ticketmaster is Hard for me and extremely draining) but I reread that line and realized the phrase "Remember who you are" is hidden in there, and I am just so! Excited! About this!

Anyway. That is all.

OH BOY.

This book has a redemption arc, and I just. ARGH. Like, about halfway through, I kind of started freaking out because OMG what if there are some sins that just can't be forgiven? What if redemption is not possible? What if some people are just doomed???

Like... I won't completely spoil my story, despite this whole thing being a spoiler, but like... to use Star Wars as an example... yes, Darth Vader might save Luke Skywalker, but does that one act of a father redeeming his son really redeem all the horrendous acts that he did previously? Like, he blew up a friggin' PLANET. That is large scale mass destruction of innocent people, just because he was interrogating someone. Can he REALLY be completely forgiven because of this one unselfish act after years of causing pain and suffering at such a massive scale?

And these thoughts occurred to me throughout the book, because halfway through, you begin to hope for redemption for this character. Except, also... what if there is no hope? And like... I wasn't prepared for how... dark it got and how conflicted my emotions were about the whole thing. Even now, I feel slightly torn. Like, is it worth saving the unsavable?

Which brings up even more crazy feelings. Like, just the mere fact that I am writing this story... should I write it? Because like, am I defending the unforgivable by writing this story? Because if redemption is not actually possible, then that means that those who are guilty of unforgivable sin should be destroyed and their destruction should be rejoiced in. Nor should we look upon their character sympathetically because to look at them in a sympathetic manner is to be complicit in evil, in a sense.

So... um... basically, writing this story is causing me to have a spiritual crisis. Geep. I know. Pretty crazy, right? >.>

Mind you, even though I am agonizing over this, I fully admit that this story is probably not as deep as I make it seem. Like, right now in the story, my MC is pretending to be a wedding coordinator and is dealing with several children who lost a lizard, and honestly it's pretty goofy. You would probably read this story and wonder, "Lol, this story seriously is giving Snoink a spiritual crisis?" So like, this is probably just me being personally angsty. But STILL. I feel strongly about this story, lol.

Anyway. I wrote a lot of words today. I feel slightly better about this story. I am still not quite sure whether this story is worth being told, but I've come to terms that, even if it's not worth being told, it is worth being written. So at least there's that...