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Stop and Stare ~ Part Four
Zoey - Continued
With my eyes shut, I prepared for whatever was to happen next. A banging noise: the sound of a car door closing. Footsteps. They were nearing me, every step echoing into my ears. A man stood above me, his breath heavy. I lifted one of my eyelids up a little. In front of me was a tall figure, but all that I could see form where I was sitting were his hands in his pockets. I swallowed hard. One... Two... Three!
Jumping to my feet, I didn't even glance at the figure in front of me. The blood pulsated through my head like a uncontrollable waterfall. I could almost hear it splashing everywhere as I sprinted into any direction, so long as it wasn't near the car and the stranger.
"Zoey! Hey! Stop!"
I froze in the middle of the road. I knew that voice... I could recognise it. Every bone in my body relaxed as I looked back at where I had been previously sitting. I exhaled heavily.
"Luke?" I stared at my brother. "What? What are you doing here?"
I couldn't believe it. Just when I thought I was dead, something good actually happened. Wow, I was lucky... I gazed at my brother's face a good few yards ahead of me, and his light eyes stared back into mine. It was him. It was really him. I mentally thanked God as I toddled towards my brother.
"What am I doing here?" he said, his hands in his work uniform's pocket. "What are you doing here? I always pass by here on my home from work, Zo. It's blooming normal for me to be here."
All that I could do was gaze at him and stammer. Should I have told him the truth? Told him everything about Aimee? She'd have killed me. What else was I supposed to say though? I hardly wanted him to think I belonged in the loony bin. No, I had to tell him. I didn't really have a choice.
"Here," Luke said, nodding back at his car. "Come into the car with me. You look freezing."
I simply nodded as a few more stammers escaped my mouth. "But why... You're here... Why are you...?" What was wrong with me?
Luke had only bought his car a few months ago, but it was the oldest thing I'd ever seen. He'd bought it from some second hand car shop for as cheap as possible, and it certainly showed too. All of the paint had practically been scraped off and one of the windows couldn't even open or close.
Luke took my hand and lifted me to my feet. After wrapping his warm arms around me, he pulled me towards the car. He opened the door, allowing me to step in rather shakily, and he was soon letting himself in through the driver's side. The car's engine was still running with the exhaust sending out a couple of loud hisses and bangs now and then.
"Do you want something to drink, Zo? Something warm?" he asked, pressing his foot down on the accelerator.
The car jolted forward, making me jump. Luke glanced at me with a look of worry in his light eyes. I needed to pull myself together. Everything was going to be fine.
"Uh, yeah..." I replied. "Yeah, please."
"I definitely wasn't expecting to see you on my way home from my mate's house. Listen, I'll take you back to mine; it's only a five minute drive from here." He started tapping his fingers against the steering wheel. "Besides, it doesn't look like you need a telling off by Mum and Dad right now..."
Luke formed a warm smile on his face, allowing for my mind to relax a little. There was still a pile of anxiety in the pit of my stomach though, making me feel sick.
What was wrong with me? I glanced down at my hands to see them shaking as the light of the car enhanced the sweat on them. This was Aimee's fault. She'd gotten me into a state like this. If she wasn't so irresponsible, I never would have been out here in the first place. As Luke began to drive, it made my body look as though it was shaking even more. I pressed myself down in the seat, hoping that it would somehow control my trembling. I despised what situations like this did to me.
The car made a sudden splattering noise, it jerked forward, then came to a silent halt. Luke insulted the car as though it was a living thing, then turned his keys and tried to start it back up again. With another jerk and some more splattering, it was moving again.
"You're so tight," I muttered as the car almost fell down a pothole. "Why couldn't you buy a better car?"
My brother let out a light chuckle as he leaned back in his seat a little. The car jerked again. Another pothole. I was beginning to regret getting into this shed of a machine. I grasped onto the seat and my nails dug into the lumpy fabric.
"Why buy something flashy when you can get something just as good, but cheaper?" Luke smiled.
Just as good? This car was basically a death trap. I felt sick as it was, so jerking up and down every few minutes only made my stomach flip even more. Aimee better have hurt herself or something, otherwise this entire journey would feel entirely pointless.
"This may seem like a wild idea to you, Luke, but maybe because buying something decent is a good way to stop yourself from getting killed."
This time, he laughed more loudly. As he halted the car at a traffic light, he shrugged. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. At least the car had stopped.
Luke kept on shifting his eyes to me as we drove, forcing me to turn my eyes to the window every time he did so. Dark colours swished past my eyes as we continued driving. As well as the murky windows, the speed of the car never allowed me to get a chance to inspect my surroundings. Vague colours flew past my eyes, only disturbing the sickly feeling at the pit of my stomach. My mind raced back to Aimee. I know I'd been saying how I hoped she was hurt due to the fact it was because of her all of this had happened, but in reality, I was scared to death for her. I tried my best to ignore the scenarios I was imagining in my head right now.
The car's radio was playing, but the noise coming out of it sounded like a never ending round of mumbles. I glanced at it and bit my lip. I shifted my eyes to Luke for a second before stretching for the radio's volume. I turned it down from nine to eight. My brother looked at me, tilting his head as his badly groomed eyebrows raised.
"It was on an odd number," I mumbled.
Luke kept his eyes on me with a slight smirk on his face. Not wanting to look at his face for much longer, I turned my attention back to the cold window.
When the car came to a stop, the low hum of the engine was replaced by a heart wrenching silence. Luke glanced at me, and then lowered his hands down from the steering wheel.
"Come inside," he said. He smiled as he nodded at the small terraced house before us.
Trying my best to compose myself, I nodded and pushed the car door open. As I stepped outside, I was immediately welcomed by Luke's hand reaching out to grab my own. I felt like a little kid. Nonetheless, I took hold of his hand. I grasped it tighter than I'd intended.
My hand still in his, Luke led me to the pavement outside his flat. The concrete floor was wet as the lights from the street lamps illuminated the ground around us. I stepped over a deep puddle before accidently kicking some of the water from it ahead of me. The tip of my shoe was soaked. Stupid thing. I squeezed Luke's hand, nudging myself closer towards him.
My brother led me into his front garden. We stepped over some bushes that were worse for wear and it wasn't long until we were both standing outside his tall front door. Telling me to stay where I was, he reached into his pocket and brought out a huge set of keys. He scanned through them, clearly unsure of what key he was looking for. He shoved one of them into the door's lock, but it failed to open the door itself. He soon tried another one. Then another. His lack of organisation skills made me feel on edge as I watched him. Four keys later, he was successful. Turning the correct key, he simultaneously pushed the door.
The light from the bottom floor hallway almost blinded me as I stepped inside. The warmth from the building felt as though it was hugging me and it gave me a surprising amount of comfort. The hallways itself wasn't exactly decorated as such. The walls were painted a dull colour, although I didn't think the yellowish green tint they had on them came from the paint. I clenched my jaw, ignoring the wet dog smell and the general mess of the building. With my hand still in Luke's, he took me into the kitchen at the end of the hallway. I was soon sitting down at the round table inside.
"Do you want tea?" Luke asked as he leaned against one of the counters. "Coffee?"
"I don't mind," I replied, looking at my hands.
Luke clicked his tongue, leaving me to sit awkwardly on the small kitchen chair. He was soon wandering back towards me with two cups of tea. He sat down opposite me.
"Zoey, what's this all about?" Luke's eyes were digging into mine.
I had to tell him. Looking anywhere but at Luke's face, I told him everything that had happened previously tonight, and as the story went on, Luke's smile become smaller and smaller. We were soon making our way back towards the car.
"I can't believe this." Luke slammed his car door shut as I pulled the seatbelt across my chest. "She is such a... such a... willy." He sighed. "Come on, I'll get you home then. Aimee better be back there because I'm not wasting my time looking for her."
For the first time tonight, I let out a laugh. Luke was mumbling to himself as he started the car, and when he reversed out of the parking space outside his house, it was as though he was on some kind of violent rampage.
I'd managed to compose myself by now. The realisation of how ridiculous I'd behaved earlier was finally sinking in. I should have just stayed in the house, stayed with what I was used to and what was comfortable for me. What was even more ridiculous was the way I'd gotten myself into some kind of panic, wandering back and forth in the middle of an unknown neighbourhood. If I'd have had any sense, I would have used my brain and realised that I could have easily found a payphone or something somewhere.
"Where does her boyfriend live?" Luke asked, tapping the steering wheel rather aggressively.
"I don't know, she didn't say."
"Well, what's his name?"
"I don't know."
Luke shook his head, a sigh leaving his mouth. Why hadn't I asked Aimee any of this? I hadn't even asked for the boy's name, let alone where he lived. All that I knew was that he lived in Amber Fountains. Where exactly, I had no idea.
"I'm going to rip his ugly head off his gangly little neck." Luke stopped the car as the traffic light in front of us turned a blood red. "Don't get me started on her."
Despite never meeting or seeing this boy, Luke obviously assumed that Aimee's boyfriend had a gangly neck as well as an ugly head--not that I was sure what that meant exactly. I smiled lightly.
I rested my head against the icy window and shut my eyes for a moment. The sound of my heartbeat was relaxing, and it was just able to put my mind at ease. My cheeks reddened as I remembered the state I was in a short hour or so ago. With my eyelids shut, I allowed my mind to drift, my breathing gradually becoming lighter. The sound of the car engine eventually disappeared, along with Luke's angry mumbling.
"Zoey?" A whisper. "Hey, Zo?"
There was a humming noise. The car's engine? Yawning, I opened my eyes after stretching out my legs in the little space that I had. Through blurred eyes, I could see my house outside of the car window. I sat myself up in the car's passenger seat and then clicked my seatbelt loose. It sprung up, stopping abruptly when it reached the top of the car.
"We're here." I glanced to the side to see Luke pulling the keys out of the car.
The second he did so, the humming noise disappeared. It must have been the engine then. Luke smiled at me lightly as he opened his car door.
With all of my senses returning at once, I sat up straight and grasped the car's door handle. I left the car and followed Luke as he jogged up the driveway. I was crossing my fingers, hoping that Luke would be a wonderful brother and not mention any of this to my parents. Even if he was planning on telling them, I was sure I'd be able to convince him not to do so. Give him a guilt trip or something... somehow.
I was shocked to find that when Luke opened the front door, it did exactly that. Open. My parents always locked the front door. I bit down on my lip. I hadn't left it unlocked, had I? I couldn't remember. What was happening to me all of a sudden? I didn't forget things, especially things as important as locking doors.
More silent than I thought was possible, I entered my house behind Luke. I feared closing the door behind me in case of waking someone up. We both froze in the dark hallway. Voices? Luke appeared to be just as baffled as me. My parents hadn't noticed that I was gone, had they? Oh my God, they were going to kill me. Luke dropped his keys onto the stairs and looked at me, raising his eyebrows.
After rubbing my shoes on the indoor mat, I pulled them off my feet and dropped them neatly onto the shoe rack. The voices appeared to be coming from my kitchen. Luke and I both tip-toed towards my kitchen door, passing all of the exotic plants my mum had collected over the years in the narrow hallway. Then I opened the kitchen door.
My mouth was open, preparing to come up with some excuse for me going out when I closed it. Sitting silently at the table was my mum and dad. My dad looked up at Luke and me. My mum did nothing. Her attention was fixed on the oven built into one of the kitchen units and her eyes were deeply bloodshot. There were teardrops racing down her cheeks and there was a thick piece of hair covering her left eye, but I didn't even think she noticed it. She simply let it hang there. Her lip quivered.
"Zoey..." my mum almost whispered. "You're... you're okay..." I thought I say her lips curve upwards for a moment, but it wasn't long until they lowered again.
Whatever she was planning on saying next was never said. Instead, her voice was turned into a trembling mess. The tears fell quicker as she lifted her hand to her mouth. No one else said a word.
My dad glanced at my mum, mouthing something. She nodded, her eyes not even moving an ounce to look at him. My dad's matched my mum's--bloodshot and wet--but the one difference was that his looked distant, almost lost. All that I could do was gaze at my parents.
"What's going on?" Luke asked. He looked at my dad. "Dad?"
Still, no one said a word. My dad glanced at my mum again as he swallowed hard. The only sound was of my mother's sobbing, each muffled word she spoke piercing into me. My dad stood up and shuffled past the washing machine. He was heading towards us. My mum whimpered.
"Dad?" Luke tried again.
My dad grabbed Luke's arm and gently pulled him aside. Why did he do that? What was going on? They hadn't even asked me why I was awake, let alone why Luke was here, not at his flat. Didn't they notice or care? I watched my dad and my brother, but failed to hear was being said. I glanced at my mum, who was mumbling something to herself.
"Can't be... everything we... just... just can't..." I could only make out random words, and none of them seemed to fit together at all.
"No! That's impossible!"
I shot my head back to my dad and brother. Luke was staring, maybe even glaring at my dad. My dad reached out to hold his arm, but Luke nudged it out of the way. What in God's name...?
"Luke?" I turned to my dad. "What's going on?"
Still, no one answered me. Mind you, no one really got the chance.
"No!" Luke yelled, his eyes locked onto my dad. His voice lowered into a whisper. "Your'e lying... You are... You have to be..." They yelling soon returned. "What the hell?"
Why was he speaking like that to my dad? Luke wasn't like that. His harsh words felt like a spear piercing my heart, leaving me speechless. As my brother spat the words out of his mouth, my mother's sobs became louder, her hand now trembling over her mouth. My dad reached for my brother's arm again, but this time, Luke shoved it away far more aggressively.
"What's going on?" I yelled this time as I held back confused tears.
"Son, you're scaring your sister!" my dad hissed at Luke.
Luke pushed my dad out of the way and stood above the kitchen table. My dad told him to calm down, but Luke didn't listen. I could feel my own eyes filling with water now, but I didn't even have a clue what was going on. I looked back at Luke to see him glaring at my mum.
"You're lying, you both are. Let me see her," he demanded as he turned back to face my dad. "No way is she..." Luke's voice trailed off as he shook his head.
"Luke, please don't.... Please..." My mum glanced at my dad, but her eyes remained distant.
"Just let me see her!" Luke shouted, this time. "I'm coming with you then!"
"Be quiet, boy! You're not going anywhere!" my dad bellowed, resulting in a horrible silence.
My dad's mouth closed and his lips quivered after realising how harsh his tone had sounded. I stared at my family, biting my lip. At least Luke had stopped shouting. Instead, he breathed out heavily and clenched his jaw, grasping onto the top of one of the kitchen chairs.
"Can someone just tell me what's going on?" I begged.
"I'll do it." He nodded at the kitchen door. "Come into the hallway." Luke's voice was blunt. He lifted his hands from the chair and before I knew it, he'd left the room.
I didn't follow. I glanced back and forth at my parents. My mum was just staring down at her lap, so I decided to keep my eyes on my dad. He nodded, looking at the door Luke had just left through. Go on, he mouthed.
I caught one last glimpse of my parents as I left the room. Closing the door behind me, I saw Luke's figure leaning against the staircase in the darkness. He ran his hand through his hair before noticing I'd come outside.
"Luke... What's...? What's going on? Why did you just do that? What's wrong with mum and dad? Why? What...?" I asked quietly.
"Zoey, what time was it when you lost sight of Aimee? Where were you? Were you where I found you?" Luke ignored my questions and asked his own as he stepped towards me.
"Why?" I searched his face in hope of finding an explanation. "Why does it matter?"
Luke said nothing, his lips pressed into a thin line. I could hear his heart thundering in his chest, matching my own. His usually tidy fringe was messily pushed off his forehead. The rest of his copper hair was just as untidy. Luke glanced back at the kitchen door before taking me into the living room. He remained silent as he did so.
Luke didn't bother to switch the wall light on, so the only form of light we had was coming weakly from the lamp in he corner of the room. Everything was turned off, just like it should have been in the middle of the night. It didn't feel right though, not at all. The silence and lack of life sliced a sharp pain through my emotions.
"Luke?" I asked, turning to him as my eyes begged for an answer to everything. "Please, just tell me..."
"It's... It's Aimee." His voice was weak as he leaned back on the sofa. "She's, well, something's happened."
My brother sounded a lot calmer than a mere few seconds ago. His voice almost sounded emotionless now - hard. To put it bluntly, it scared me. I thought about what he'd just said. Something's happened. Like what? Why wouldn't he just tell me? She hadn't been badly hurt, had she? What if she'd been arrested for something? I told her not to go to that stupid place. Why hadn't she listened, just this once? She never did bloody listen.
"She's been stabbed." The words shot out of Luke's mouth like bullets and embedded themselves into my tired head.
"What? How? Oh my God! Is she okay?" I jumped up. "Why aren't we in the hospital with her? She must be... She must be terrifie--"
"No, Zoey, you don't..." He sighed, running his hand through his hair once more. "You don't understand."
I didn't understand? What was there to understand? Aimee had been a complete idiot, gone to probably the roughest neighbourhood in Britain, and gotten herself into deep trouble. If she'd have just stopped and thought.
"Zoey, she's dead."
No. No, she wasn't.
I'd spoken to her just a few hours ago. I'd seen her, I'd smelt her sweet perfume, I'd listened to her soft voice. She couldn't be dead. Not my sister. Not Aimee.
I'd never had the feeling of my body shutting down before, but I had a pretty good idea now. Luke was saying something, his words sickeningly soft, not that it mattered. They were just noises - a buzzing sound in my ears. The darkness of the room was closing in on me, choking me.
We were planning on going shopping tomorrow; Aimee wanted to buy some new black leggings. How could we do that if she was... No. We were going to go shopping tomorrow, we were. My chest felt tight as I stared at Luke and my mouth was completely. I couldn't say a word without it making me feel sick.
"No, what are you on about?" I blurted. "I saw her... I just saw her a few hous ago. How do they even know it's her? I mean, it could be anyo-"
"Zoey, she had her purse. It has all of her contact information in it. Her I.D card, her debit card. It's... It's her. The police called mum half an hour ago. They found her in some park in Amber Fountains. Dad's going to..." Luke looked down. "He's going to the police station now to make sure... make sure it's her."
For the second time tonight, I felt my eyes stinging. Every inch of my body was limp, partly from tiredness and partly from my emotions going into overdrive. It could have been a mistake. Someone might have taken her purse... stolen it. The girl they'd found could have just looked like Aimee, and they happened to have stolen her purse. It could have happened... It could have.
As suddenly as the news had hit me, memories flooded my mind. I'd never see Aimee again... I'd never shout at her for messing up my make-up collection, or talk to her about how some idiot boyfriend had ripped my heart apart. Never again would I listen to her wild stories, most of which I hardly ever believed. I whimpered like my mum had done earlier.
Then I cried. The tears were powerful, stinging my cheeks as they fell. I couldn't think straight, and it didn't even feel like I could breathe properly. The water from my eyes was cold against my boiling skin as my lip quivered. The rest of me had no clue what to do. If I'd have asked a simple question - asked for her boyfriend's name - things could have been different. Then a million questions hit me.
"Who was with her? How did they find her? Do they... Who did it?"
"No one... Dad said she was on her own," Luke replied flatly. "But someone called. For an ambulance, that is. It was from a payphone though, Zo. They don't know who it was, just that it was guy. And I don't know. They'll find out, don't worry. I know they will." There was noticeable determination in his coarse voice. "I'll kill the damn guy."
Neither of us said a word then; we both appeared to be lost in something. I myself was lost in my thoughts, almost drowning in them. Luke's eyebrows were furrowed and the tears in his eyes were hard, showing nothing but anger.
"I'll kill him..."
I had so many questions racing through my mind, almost bursting out of my mouth, but I had to hold them back. I needed to understand my thoughts myself before letting them out. Luke was silent, his jaw clenched and his body motionless. The only thing moving were his hands which were rubbing his knees in a rhythmic fashion.
Maybe this was a dream. Maybe everything I was seeing, hearing, feeling, smelling right now was in my imagination. Things like this didn't happen in real life, only on the television. How could it happen to me? To my family? To Aimee? My sister was strong. Some stupid little blade couldn't hurt her, not the Aimee I knew. She was fine. She had to be... She'd promised to make my sixteenth birthday memorable, that she'd do the best she could to embarrass me. Aimee never broke her promises.
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