My thoughts:
Sometimes I wonder if life is just a joke. That if all of this is nonsense, but I know it is not.
Then sometimes I wonder if I'm just the nonsense. I try to think of a way to think differently but get stuck in a cycle. I feel the only way to break the cycle is to do what I cannot do, which is think differently.
I will break the cycle eventually though, I just know it. Or if not I'll write about it, all of it. I'll live, survive, until my purpose is fulfilled.
I know that I truly want to see flowers everyday, I want to feel breeze on my neck and I want to be on a beach, and swim and laugh. I want to be happy. I just have to stop thinking about me, and about everything around me. I know this. Knowing is just one thing though.
Spoiler
I am actually going through a tough time now. Funny how you start something for someone else and it ends up helping you. I am being honest here because what's the point in acting like life is perfect when I want us all to be honest. I think being honest is the first step towards freedom. And sometimes speaking of my pain is what keeps me going.
