Life:a dream or real?

I had a life twelve years back,too pretty it was but completely a rack;

One certain day I got an attack,when I was admitted to a boring shack
I cried so loud but nobody heard,everyone thought I was being a nerd.
It was awful until I got my name to be registered under popularity and fame.
It isn't so bad to be the younger lad,
The one who has not can never feel the plot.
Da supported me in everyway ..that he could do to ease my days
I love him more than anyone else ,I know we still are the best of friends.
He was there for sixteen long years,to stand with me,to wipe my tears.
He is the coolest of all guys i know,because he fights for his dreams and then enjoys the show...
He left for his career,left me all alone;
Someone was needed to support my life's drone.
Grandpa expired suddenly back then,I lost my reason to laugh and my reign.
Maybe this is the truth we all need to face,but not in a way so that we cant keep the pace...
Very few will understand this hell lot of stress,as very few unlucky are victims of such a case.
Those old memories were all shut down because I had to run & win the crown..
It was pathetic to feel that way that I lacked the time to summarize him for a day..
Well I moved on to achieve something new,but people of same frequency out there are very few.....
I still tried to live in the mass,then I got someone who gave me the pass.
Nothing on this earth is predictable,
just as disasters are inevitable.
Disaster was there which swept away all with a swipe
Left me injured to keep mum and wipe
Best buddy is not just a word,
its a feeling to understand which is very hard.
We'll know how it feels if we have one,
But not now during our oblivion.
Not everyone in our life stays till the end,
But those who does are the real friends.
I loved my life and my days but leisure is harmful and the time decays.
So I faced the consequences,a very tight one
Which could have caused me to have far gone.
Ups and downs are rules of life but straight down graphs hurt as knife.
I was in love after a long ride as none was there to give the proper guide.
I ignored my dreams and believed on them,lost my power and my fame.
Laziness and entertainment are two big traps,
that helps to margin the sincere and casual's gap
Its really hard to be the best ;
but the adventure lies in the hardest.
To gain the fame was really hard,unable to shield it i lost the guard.
But I am not a looser and that's what I feel;
someday I will turn my own life's wheel.
People don't support defeat,they appreciate the win
And those who loose after a win,should probably help their life ruin
To them I say NO, I will definitely live my dream
As I always love to oppose the flow and swim.
Through the same old love my strength I got
which I've been missing for long but now certainly not..
I love him the way I stopped a year back,because he is the one like me-->a crack
Never leave me for its the last time I got
to love someone purely from my heart. 

He is the shadow I always used to look,
who would show me who I am and how I read a book..
He is the treasure I'll always keep,

to retain myself alive for the lifelong trip.
Thanks to him for accepting however I am,
Because its rare to see someone so eager to get a mam..
Its hard to describe the equation we share,
Because we come across such people so rare ..
I don't know whether to thank almighty
or not for being so late in his duty..
I don't know whether to curse myself or not;
for being unable to identify this knot.
Time never stops and life moves on,
but these moments we share are like the early dawn..
Its nice to feel & think about him,
but time's less so the brain's working dim.
Because if anyhow he enters my mind palace,
I keep struggling to get out the phase..
Writing about him would take such long,

that no longer to this world would i belong..
Because some infinities are greater than others,

I'll love him till the end of the stars..
Its time to have a new beginning,
to hide from the world the phase with tragic ending..
To let the past remain buried
is not so easy to accomplish in a hurry.
It takes time to dry the tear
as weather inside the heart is not so clear. 
Mistake should not be repeated that's what we learn,
But repeating mistake once and again is our birthright we earn.

"Just never commit the mistake I did" is a common phrase,
But its a capital mistake to theorize before we have all the evidence ..
Parents help us to guide in our race,
but we instead ask them to remember their childhood phase..
At the end we learn they were right,
But ignore to accept and tell them to keep it aside. 
Love is the bond that we all share,with many a people or maybe with very rare.
Life has its aspects we should keep in mind,
to avoid disaster let our lives grind.
We fear to be considered as a looser
But ultimate defeat gives a pain much harder. 
Fighting back again hits the very old pain.
Requires a lot of courage,only success can then stop the rage. 
Someday I'll be back to fulfil my dreams,
to dance across the world and bake the cake with creams..
To sing from the heart loud and clear;
So that the losers who cant love themselves can clearly hear.. 
I hope my life will give me a chance to spend it worth the rest of my youth
Because when you eliminate the impossible,whatever remains however improbable must be the truth..