Our Call..!

You know what! I can’t talk to you now…Bye!

It was the last thing you said and left off. But what
started as a friendship shouldn’t end like this.

I loved you but I was surely not in love with you. The two
things are very different. I like my bike or my basketball, but that doesn’t
mean I am in love with them. It was the same with you too. I always wanted you
as my friend…a good friend whom I could tell anything whenever I needed. But
you misunderstood me, you thought what I wanted was not friendship but
relationship. You just stopped talking to me and left me completely answerless
why did you do so? I sent you so many apology messages but you didn’t ever
replied to any. You thought it showed my obsession but nahi you idiot …it was
just I cared for you. I never wanted someone whom I cherished talking to should
remember me as someone I wasn’t. I wanted to talk to you not because I was
obsessed but because I wanted to know if it was I who had hurt you. And as God
always lends a helping hand to the needy, he lent it to me too. I was talking
to this common friend of us and my classmate about the general things in our
lives and then it came up to something on which I just had to tell him about
you. He told me it wasn’t my fault and he would talk it to you. He did and
later he told me that you were convinced to talk and he said talk to you like a
friend and not like…..! I just couldn’t figure out the word following “like”.
We talked and you seemed to be easy about it and just said you were not angry
or annoyed but just a little messed up and I just agreed to it. But then he
told me something more something I never thought about or I would never think
about. I asked him what you felt about me and this is what I got in reply. He
said you think me to be cute, to be a great guy and to be a good friend. But he
said you too think I was obsessed and I was smothering you. I didn’t care about
anything you thought against about me but when he said you feared that I could
use abuse you and use slangs for not accepting my proposal, I was completely
heart-broken. I just couldn’t figure out why you thought like that and he said
he had to put himself as a guarantee to make you reply me. I really became so
disturbed after all this and when you replied again, I was not in very good
mood and I just talked a little low. I just asked you not to talk to me if you
didn’t want. But you behaved like everything was normal and that was something
which made me annoyed. I just asked you to stop talking to me if it was awkward
for you and you said you don’t feel anything like that and it depended on me to
continue talking or end it up….it was my call. I just asked you about all I
came to know and you said, “I can’t talk to you now”. It made me again in the
position I hated being. I tried to apologize even at the fact where I wasn’t
wrong but for our friendship I did it too. I am very strong person but I become
very weak when it comes to my friends. I became so disturbed and had to pop out
pills to doze off. I talked it out to my mamma and she said I wasn’t wrong but
what I said might have hurt you so I decided to ask for apology again but this
was the last time. I have lost some of my very good friends ….i would just lose
another though I ‘ll cry for italways
but I can’thelp it. I can’t force you
to understand what I always felt. I can’t make you talk to me. I can’t make us
friends again.

You said it was my call but dear you should understand it s
not mine or yours. But for Friendship, it should be OUR CALL.

Guys it’s not something I planned and wrote it’s just what I
felt and penned down. Please don’t review it because it will contain mistakes
or whatever I just don’t care this time, just read. You are free to comment, if
you want.

:) Shivam here...!