I am an occasional writer, or perhaps one aspiring to be. This
realization dawns upon me as I sit down to write after a long time. I often feel
an urge to pen down my thoughts but something or the other comes in the way of
my bleak dedication. Be it lack of composite ideas, pre-occupation in some
other work or mere shameless procrastination. However, I could fill pages if I had
to write about my daily activities, my writing block or my apprehensions. But then
I stop and ask myself- who would want to read all this? Who am I? A celebrity?
A sports icon? An acclaimed actor? The truth is I am nothing; just a breathing
piece of flesh in this vast universe ruled by numerous talented and twinkling
stars. I am just a dull member of the galaxy clouded by the ever so magnificent
moon. So I realize that if and when I wish to write I must consciously decide
to distinguish the writing from the writer. It may pour itself into the pages
like rain droplets hissing down the window pane but I must make sure that the
window remains shut.
So what shall I write about? Love? Nah. It is cliché to the
point that all of my poems end up glorifying the purpose, existence and
importance of it regardless of the theme I had begun with. Also, I have never
been in a relationship. I know nothing. (But isn’t it the job of a writer to
imagine and create what is not there?)
So I tell myself to move beyond love and write a story
about, umm, well, a war. A gruesome war narrative that would stir the soul of
the reader by bringing to life the struggles of millions of those scarred from
the clutches of the monster that destroys both the perpetrator and the
preventer. But how could I even dare to think that I am capable of such an endeavor?
I have no experience or research accomplishments whatsoever. How will I ever be
able to understand the gravity without having sufficiently read, heard or
searched?
Now I search for a lighter topic, something that would not
be beyond my capabilities and something that could attract more readers. So I pick
a recent controversy and plan to voice my opinion in order to give a new angle
to the event. Finally, the nib of my pen touches the page of my new diary and I
see that the ink has already dried up.
Points: 243
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