Dreams are gateways for all the evil, the hate, the love, the fear, the explosion of random emotions and unstoppable unpreventable undeniable images in the world to come flooding into your heart while you’re the most vulnerable. Dreams are that itch you can’t scratch, just out of reach- unattainable. Dreams are illusive mischievous creatures. Invisible, nonexistent, smoke. You can’t grab them, can’t keep them, they’re not yours. Yet; I’m holding on so tightly now, my insides scream so loud. They keep watching, watching me drown. How did it come to this? The nightmares have no ownership, no authority, over my mind but I have no defense- no golden gate- against them. They come as freely as air through lungs, leaving toxic holes in my mind that fill with webs of fear. Holes upon endless holes until nothing is left. Empty. Wind flies through my mind as I walk down the hall nonexistent- people looking through me. Wind, wind, wind carrying the dandy line seeds of my heart higher, higher, higher until they float through the holes in my head. They are free now but people don’t see them, they ignore the silly secrets of my heart that they carry, they step on them. I’m broken. I used to have dreams until the illusion of perfection was pulled from my eyes. Now the nightmares are everywhere. What’s the difference? Nightmares and dreams- they’re both the same, neither is real, neither is to blame. To blame for the pain? To blame for the disappointment? For the hate? I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know! Stop yelling. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. Please do shut up it’s quiet time. The bubbly giggles of girls and flirtatious comments of guys temporarily fill the holes. I feel OK. Nothing is empty, nothing is broken, nothing is missing. Until I get home that is. I ignore it. It’s not there. What? Nothing’s there silly! Well if you must ask I’ll tell you what’s not there! Hurt and betrayal and disappointment and mental disorders and girl on boy promiscuous activity and lies and false smiles. Those, my friend, are most certainly not there! It’s dark, I’m covered, hidden, shielded, protected. REPEAT THE WORDS AND IT’S TRUE. The label on the synthetic-parental-reassurance pills says. They’re defective, they don’t work. I fall asleep hoping for a break and get eaten alive. Knifes, blood, drugs, mind eating teachers, vicious fang mouthed girls, how is this parallel universe any different from reality? How is reality any different from my dreams? It’s all mixed up, muddled, confused. I’ve spilled the paint over life’s picture and can’t see anything anymore. Sleeping is prison, pinned to the bed by childish fears. Immobilized, paralyzed, stuck, left to drown while the holes find there way back again. Gnawing, eating, dissolving away my fake shield of laughter and bubble gum and hey-your-kinda-hot. !@#$. !@#$. !@#$. I want it to stop. I can feel it. Burning, singeing, erasing my memories of how it feels to be whole. I need it to stop. School won’t except damaged goods. Your friends won’t either. Get better- they tell me. I’m trying. Go to sleep honey. I’m dying. I can’t keep going on this way. My heart beat stumbles as my back bone crumples, I feel is it real? Dreams. Nightmares. It’s all a disguise.
Dandy lion seeds floating
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Yay! People finally responded! OK first of no I would most definitely not want to control my dreams if I had the option to, their too entertaining. Secondly this piece started off as something entirely different and that's why I named it Dandy Lion Seeds but your right I could have put more thought into the name. lastly, yeah I know it's just this huge mass of words, I was being lazy and just posted it without putting it in any type of format but i will next time, thanks.
i liked this a lot. try spacing out and making lines, instead of having one big chunky paragraph. some readers say that draws them away from a poem or story. so, try lessening it, but other than that it was wonderful! loved this.
you did a nice job there only that the poem was too lenght and that your title should have been dreams and nightmares
Very interesting piece of work. I enjoyed the way you describe dreams in this without fear you just lay it all out. I'm curious though if you had the ability to control your dreams, would you? Good job and keep it up!