Our Little Secret
There was a time when we hold our hand like nobody is watching, like we don’t give a shit to people, like we are made for each other. But now the story is different and it will be different for some reasons, I am sure there will be a reason and I want that reason for you to treat me like this.
So our little secret starts when we met each other, we were in college and luckily in same section same seat same friends and same group.
How love story starts? It starts with two people who are totally strangers and one fine day they meet and made promises to love each other until it lasts.
Our story also starts as strangers and love each other until it lasts.
First day of my college all strangers few will be my friends few don’t like me and few think I have an attitude it doesn’t matter I am who I am, need to be confident enough to face them and make friends to survive for now. This is all I am thinking and I saw a girl her looks, innocence on her face, cuteness overloaded just wanted to see her like this and want time to stop so I can nurture her presence in my mind permanently.
As college starts our studies also start I just want to sit with her make myself visible to her all the time so that we can start talking and my imagination come true. I was just thinking these things and professor gave us assignment on the spot and we have to complete that assignment in teams. Teams divided by our professor and I genuinely want her to be in my team, Professor made me leader of my team and while she distributed team I crossed my fingers just to have her in my team by the end I heard her name my eyes to the professor were like please send her in my team and yes my eye magic worked what a moment when she walked in my team I see a smile on her face I think that was my first eye contact with her, she looked beautiful.
Professor assigned assignment to us and we have to complete that task on time but first as a team we must know each other, I started my introduction with the team and suddenly I asked her about who she is and all I don’t want to listen anyone else except her. When she told me her name that moment gives me some sort of relief, some medicine to my distraction, some music to my ears when I listened her name.
I don’t want to miss any chance to be around her helping in assignment, be a member in presentation and be a member in group discussion, just to be around her. We have to make a group on whatsapp just to prepare our presentation and share to the person who is compiling, I got her number finally we can can start our conversation the first time I said Hi to you on whatsapp and you replied to that message I think there were some connection between us we both had some kind of spark and our conversation starts and I don’t know the connection we are building or other thing our conversation lasts when we get to know it’s morning we have to reach college on time we were talking over text but it seems like we are talking over phone and all things are so natural.
Slowly slowly she opened up I got to know her secrets and her fears, I also shared my fears my past I know she can keep my secret safe as I keep hers.
We start talking over phone when we see each other now we hold each other’s hand, in every fight I was with you in emotional breakdown I was with you my love for you was increasing day by day and I know you love me more than I do.
As we were sitting in our group I am holding her hand tightly I don’t want anything in my life but friends are friends they sent her to buy something so that they can talk to me they accused me for not giving them time as I have nobody inspite her and gradually I am realizing they are also important part of my life I should give them time too.
From this thought our differences might start when she was with me and I am with others try to look good in their eyes but I realized what if she didn’t like all these things I don’t want to loose her so I made her a part of the group so that I can spend time with her and my friends too.
I was with her all the time in every good or bad situation but inspite of trying these things she always take me for granted, her love is real but the way she showed was not appropriate for others and I want all to feel the same love what I feel but her love makes me weak everybody feels so do I.
One of her friend introduced her to a guy and she got concerned about him eventhough she was with me but she always have a concern for that guy inspite of me, the love I wanted the care I wanted I think her past took place of that. She was with me but talking to him made me his wisher whatever he wanted you do and I do things just because she asked me to do and at the end he wanted things she took things from me and gave it to him first time it broke my heart and I started to realize that our little secret for love was took over by her past.
I had a past too but I didn’t reflect that past in my present I don’t want us to suffer like I suffer in my past. There is saying Don’t make your past reflect in your present it can ruin your future, so the past ruined our future her past was so dark that it reflected in our present and my love can’t do anything our talks ends up in a fight and understanding is missing.
Every problem has a solution I too have a solution to confront everything to her and I feel in that vary moment when we confronted I feel more connected to her, she put her points I put mine and we understand each other’s point we realized our mistakes everything is back at that moment the feel, love, holding hands, cute talks I think never give up attitude worked, I got my love back the way I put finger in her hairs just to keep that side from her face so that I can see her face, kiss on her cheeks, hug her tightly, stare at her like nobody’s watching, feeding her from my hand she liked it.
Our little secret is how we fight from our past from our insecurities the way we confronted each other. Love make things more possible then we thought so every relationship secret is Trust, Communication, Respect, Care and Understanding, If we have these things relationship gets stronger and one day you will fall in love as I do.