Yo, yo, yo.
So Hannahbobannah has given you some solid comments and we are not in line on this even a little bit, because as I'm pretty sure you know, I really didn't like this. Reading her review has helped me out a little bit, because I'm not American and your political climate is not similar to my own so perhaps I'm missing some important cultural connections that would really help me get in tune with what you've got here.
Why didn't I like this? It might be because I found your main character intensely dislikable - which I know is partially the purpose of the narrative, a character who begins with so little to truly recommend them coming through the other side perhaps as a better person, but I still don't like her. I find her not only petulant but also... childish. Like an emo or goth 16 year old who thinks they're so much better than everyone else, even as they despise themselves at the same time. It's an accurate portrayal of the kind of person I despise being around. Again, this may have been your intent, but it felt unpleasant to me and very difficult to get through on the whole.
I find the actions she takes in the story confusing at best, they don't seem to feel real or realistic, though I admit the genre of the story doesn't ask for realism. Maybe I just don't know the right kind of people. I liked the growing concern, the fear of the man while in the car - that felt right. Though I found it strange that she decided to stay and go in with him when it felt more in character for her to ditch. I suppose you can't have a story if it doesn't go in the right direction though.
The meat of the story: What even. The rant that goes on didn't connect with me at all. Wrong political climate, wrong kind of reader, I found it tedious and repetitive. I was over the narrative by now, the shift in tone was appropriate to the story and felt right in a strange way but I was ready for it to be over.
What I find immensely interesting is that I didn't read the end like Hannahbobannah did. She sees the introduction of the panther again as a reassertion of family that you don't have to doubt. For me, though, it shows that THIS now is something that she can doubt. "Why would she say anything so wonderful without reason?" why would she compliment me for no reason, why would anyone say something without having an ulterior motive. Her brain has been rearranged, nothing is as it was and her safe spaces are not even vaguely safe anymore, they've changed in the same way she has, light has been shone on her dark corners and burned away the good with the bad. She is reinvented. That is probably the thing I liked most of this story. I found it sad because it was a nice image but ultimately the best crush you could have done, the most realistic ruination - turning the safe words of family into dry ash in the mouth. That works really well.
I don't enjoy reading works that are sinister, I should also say, it made me a bit uncomfortable physically. If that's what you're going for, double thumbs up. I found most of your characters two dimensional, except for the girl who I disliked a lot. And I found, like Rosey, that it felt a little mechanical, checking off the boxes of things that are Literary and good.
But many plusses for writing a thing and sharing it cause I'm into reading it, even if I don't like it.
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