How dare he? How dare he leave her alone? Of all the times he could have chosen to leave her, he picked the one when Fairy Tail was disbanded, when separations happened and everyone took different path from each other.
Ruination fell over the Fairy Tail hall for a second a time, and a town full of people had died because of the poisonous gas. Even when Fairy Tail won the war against the guild of demons, Tartarus, the damage done due to it was major and terrifying. Despite all of that, Natsu decided to leave her alone.
According to the letter he had left for her, he left her because he wanted to train himself to be stronger. This pursue of further training was not done for nothing; he had stated that he wanted to take revenge for his dead dragon father, Igneel to Acnologia, the dragon that had caused the miserable death. The dragon who mercilessly ripped Igneel’s body apart and shattered Natsu’s heart.
She understood that, she really did - she knew how it felt to know the death of your father - but why should he leave her? Why couldn’t he take her with him so that both of them could have company - Happy the Cat followed Natsu, but Lucy was sure Natsu wanted a human company as well - and both of them could work together as a team and be stronger together too. What was the harm in that?
Other than Natsu, she always spent time with Erza, Gray, and Wendy. They were a team. In the Grand Magic Game, they were the whole members of Fairy Tail A team, the five of them. But now each of them had different idea in mind after the separation; Erza had expressed her desire to help the demolition of all magic council members, thus helping rebuilding the council members; Gray had went for a training along with Juvia for the personal vendetta he had after the true death of his father; Wendy had accepted Cana’s offer to stay with her in the church cathedral. With all of them gone, Lucy was all by herself.
There was, of course, the dearest friend she had, Levy, who was the first person to ask Lucy about the novel Lucy was working on. Although Levy did not say it, Lucy knew Levy wanted to accompany Gajeel, for whatever it was Gajeel was planning to do.
On that matter regarding Gajeel, Lucy, being a curious one she was, and after having the suspicion, had pestered Levy whether Levy had a crush on Gajeel or not. Levy, after a while, said yes, and since she seemingly could not refrain any longer, continued saying she had kissed Gajeel when Gajeel was barely out of breath. Right then, Lucy understood Levy’s feeling, and was fine with Levy accompanying Gajeel.
But before she left, Levy left an advice: “Find him, Lucy. He might not know it, but he’s being awfully oblivious right now. Find him and tell him that. And tell him... what you really want to tell him.” A wink ended the advice.
Lucy took the advice without a second thought. When Natsu was gone, she understood now how important he was to her. She understood that she should realize this sooner, and not just had the feeling that she wanted Natsu to be with her. He was her savior and guidance, and most importantly, he was a friend she wanted to have. Even his annoying childish attitude had grown on her.
One year was a long time to wait for Natsu to come back. She did not have the immense patience needed for that. She was not the type to wait either. So she asked Macarov whether the guild insignia on Natsu’s arm would disappear when the guild was disbanded, and he said no, it would not, unless Natsu joined other guild.
It was a weird mechanism, but it would do good for Lucy’s plan. She went to the Blue Pegasus’s guild hall, and after being extremely pleasantly treated by the Trimen, asked Hibiki whether he could trace Natsu’s whereabout using the insignia on Natsu’s arm. Hibiki confirmed that he could, since the insignia still had magic in it, albeit the magic being very weak and insignificant. In fact, Hibiki said the insignia was designed to serve as a tracing point, as it was very difficult to detect or notice. He had known this much earlier, but said nothing due to being polite.
Knowing that wondering about the reason Fairy Tail used an insignia that could act as a tracing point would just waste her time, she asked for Hibiki’s help to locate Natsu’s whereabout. It took a few minutes for Hibiki to finish his searching using his advance Archive Magic, and they found out that the point on the map where Natsu was was on the forest area.
After gathering all the necessary information about Natsu’s location from Hibiki, she bid farewell, and when Hibiki asked why she did this, she replied: “I just have to, or else there would be a huge emptiness in my life.”
Lucy needed money, so she joined Sabretooth’s guild, after asking Yukino’s help for recommendation. The guild members easily accepted her after knowing Yukino’s high regard on Lucy. It was suitably awkward for Minerva to act around Lucy as both of them had bad history with each other, but Lucy quickly said she had forgiven Minerva, as Erza had briefed Lucy about the reason of Minerva’s evil acts.
Although she understood Minerva’s situation, Lucy said to Minerva she could not, and would not, forget what Minerva had done to her. She further said Minerva should not repeat the same mistakes she had done, not jut because they were not the right thing to do, but also because Minerva would lose her friends if she kept repeating him.
After three months working with Sabretooth (many things had happened since then; Sting’s confession and Lucy’s rejection, Yukino’s revelation about Angel being her sister, Sorano; and the entirely different atmosphere in Sabretooth), Lucy had enough money to start on a search for Natsu. She bid farewell to Sabretooth’s members, and promised Yukino she would come back, albeit in a different occasion.
When she was starting to leave Magnolia, she met Mirajane who was walking around with Laxus - both of them had their hands locked to each other. Lucy was thrilled to see Mirajane, and more when Mirajane told Lucy she was dating Laxus, with Laxus blushing hearing that. Lucy said it was nice thing to know, and not missing the chance, Laxus apologized for what he did to her during the Fairy Tail Game festival - as he had no chance to do that until now, and Lucy forgave him, giving the same warning she had given to Minerva to him.
After informing Mirajane she was going to start a journey to look for Natsu, Mirajane had a knowing smile, and wished good luck to Lucy. She was confident Lucy would find Natsu, and left an advice to Lucy: “When you find him, Lucy, remind him that he needs you greatly. He does not know it, and will not admit it, but it is very clear to everyone. Don’t let his obliviousness stop you from making him a better person, since you are the only one who can do that to him.”
A/N: This work won’t be finished. Firstly, I did this before I joined YWS, and had forgotten about it until now. While I see some potentials, I’m not greatly attached to the manga it’s based on currently. What do you think about this fanfic?