Dream.

                Dream.

       Part 1: ~The collapse~

I opened my eyes and the half of my life was
just a ten years' dream. I look older, my face is completely changed,
my hair is longer than it used to be

my mind is wiser and a little bit old fashioned.
My parents look really old. My nephiew is an eleven years old boy. I
used to have one married sister;

but now there are two and a married brother. The
love I felt for my boyfriend has gone and so did he probably. My body
feels so numb and tired, it's like

I've been in a way long lethargy.

For a moment I had no idea what was going on, I
didn't know where was I or why was I there ... it's like my thoughts
got evaporated for a second, then I put myself together

and I knew I was in a long coma because I had a
terrible accident and I was in a room in a hospital. The fact that
I've lost ten years of my life not doing a thing drove me crazy, I
could've been dead instead

of wasting such a precious thing like time. When
I tried to refresh my memory trying so hard to remember what happened
I couldn't, there were only some vague images and voices

stuck in my head and they belonged to people I
love and care about I guess.. .Right after I was wide awake, I looked
into everyone's eyes and they were kind of shocked, well

I guess they weren't expecting me to wake
up.After an akward and weird silence my mom finally made a move. She
hugged me with all her strength with tears on her cheecks saying

"Oh my little baby, I believed in you. I
knew you'll wake up again and be with us all over again like nothing
happened" and then everybody in the room started to hug me and
kiss

me and they were all happy and delighted. The
room was full of joy till the nurse came in and she asked them to
stay back and she started examining me and she was a bit shocked as
well.

She called the doctor and said to my familly
that I need some rest  so they all went out. After they gave me some
medicines and tested my sight and stuff they went out too and before

they do the doctor said "Have some rest
fighter and welcome back again" with a big smile on his face
like if he was waiting every second of those ten years for me to wake
up and it felt

little bit weird. I looked at the clock, it was
7:30 p.m , then I looked to the window it was getting darker outside.
I had some alone time to think and analyse what exactly happened.

All I could remember was a painful car crush and
screams. I tried hard to remember more but no result. I drank some
water from the glass that was near me and stared at the ceiling
until

I fell asleep. When I woke up on the next day I
found my mom and my sisters waiting for me to get up because we were
suppose to leave the hospital that day. I stood up and barely could
walk,

I mean for ten years I didn't get out of bed
that must've been something... I washed my face, brushed my hair and
put on my clothes. I drank a coffee with some cookies that mom has
made and

I was ready to go out and see the world again.
When we went out I took a good look at the place, it changed alot,
looks so much clearer, more buildings and more cars and people. we
got in the

car and I asked mom " We finally bought a
car ?" She looked at me and smiled "Yes honey, for sure we
did" she said and she grabbed my hand and said" We've
really missed you, we missed you alot"

I just looked to her pretty old face and smiled
and put my head on her shoulder and I felt that feeling of safety and
warm which I haven't felt for so long.We finally arrived at home and
as long

as my mom opened the door, a bunch of people
surprised me with welcoming screams and hugs and I couldn't even
remember the half of them .I just smiled at them and walked as fast
as I could to my

room. It was the only thing that haven't
changed, everything is the exact way I left it. I layed down on the
bed and started thinking...

I opened my eyes in the next morning, after I
slept very tightly.I was having breakfast.Suddenly, I droped
everything that was in my hand because I felt like I'm seeing some
sort of a flash inside my

mind, like a short horror tape has been played
infront of my eyes.The first thing I saw was my bestfriend's face,
and her green eyes.

We were singing and having fun while we were in
a car, until I glimpsed a truck coming as fast as it could from
nowhere heading directly to us, and the last thing I remembered was
some screams which

terrified me and made a huge noise in my ears.It
was my bestfriend's scream ...

I felt horrible and went to my mom and asked her
"where is Amy?" but she didn't say a thing, she looked to
the floor and leaned her head down. I asked again in a strong tone
this time" Mom ! where the hell is Amy ?"

"Please mom, answer me, where is Amy?
please mom ..." I kept asking but she couldn't say a single
word. I bursted out crying and whining. I cried an ocean of tears and
then mom came and hugged me and she tried to 

comfort me. I felt like my heart has been broken
literally this time. I had lots of heartbreaks but I've never felt
like this before. It's like a piece of me is gone and I know that
there's nothing I can do to

get it back ever again. Days are passing, time
is ticking and I still can't believe that my soulmate passed away,
gone forever and I won't be able to see her again in what's left of
my life. We grew up together

like twins, we were more than friends or even
sisters. We got into fights together, we broke boys' hearts together.
Everything we did we did it together since our childhood. My life
just doesn't have any meaning

right now, because the new of her d.e.a.t.h came
like a violent hurricane which destroyed my entire life. So I decided
to make an end to this misery, I grabbed a blade and I cut both of my
wrists. What I hoped was that 

I'd be able to wake up next to my old friend,
the first thing I'd be able to see is her gleaming green eyes which
are full of love . But all I could see was a white light above me,
and I heard people talking and felt that

there's something in my arm, and there's also
some medical machines around me. Then I knew that my wish didn't come
true and probably it would never do. It's like my life isn't meant to
come to an end now..

My fate is to keep suffering from losing
everything that I've ever loved. Everything I touch dies..

     Well,after all life doesn't stop at
someone's depart right,I mean after a period of time we all have to
move on whether it was long, tough,rough or even good.

  I finally could've settled ,I didn't actually
forget what happened but I could live with it.I still don't know what
to do with my life right now.I feel so lost .. I just sleep all the
time. Once I was sleeping I had that 

weird dream.It wasn't quiet obvious or
comprehensable but it felt real tho. In this dream I was in my first
year of highschool, at first I thought I was just rememorizing what
happened before the accident, but I wasn't. I could

see the calender and the time and it's something
you don't usually see in dreams. I was in an exam and I was drawing a
gate in the darkness untill my phone rang, I didn't answer. I kept
drawing till I finished my drawing, I put it in my handbag and went

out. I checked my phone I found out that my bff
has called me and it's so odd, SHE IS DEAD and I'm quiet sure what I
saw wasn't before the accident because we were on Monday, the third
of Mars which means a month after the accident.I called her back but
What she said wasn't clear,

I just heard some muddled noises..

The next morning When I woke up I decided to go
look for a job. I searched all day but couldn't find a thing. So I
went home at the evening tired,upset and desperate. I had dinner and
then I searched again online for any appropriate jobs but it was

useless. I put my head on the soft pillow and
closed my eyes, and here is it again that weird dream. I was holding
the phone once again and this time I heard her clearly what she was
saying. "H..i hi, Nancy I..I want to tell you something,

we need to meet right now" she said in a
terrible tone, I was sure she was terrified and what was going on
won't please me.Luckily I had no exam later. So we met. When she saw
me she hugged me instantly while crying. I tried to

calm her down "Hey, honey calm down, what
is it what is going on ?" I asked her. "He did it , h..e
he.. he did it, I never thought he'd do such a thing to me" she
said, "What ? what did he do to you?" I asked her again.
"Nancy, I'm pregnant.."

Before even she could finish her speach I
slapped her and then said "You're what ?" she said "I
didn't know how did it happen, honestly, we were just having fun till
things got so serious" I just remained silent,I didn't know

what to say, I didn't know what we would do.We
were 16 years old for god's sake. Then I woke up, it was a horrible
nightmare, thank god it was only a dream but it felt so real tho. I
washed my face, had my breakfast and I went back 

to my room to change my clothes. I opened the
closet and a paper fell of the shelf. I took a look at it. "Omg,
OH MY DEAR LORD GOD!" it's that drawing from my dream, the gate
with the dark colors in it. The same exact one as the one

I saw in my dream. I was shaking, I could feel
the blood freezing in my veins, I just threw it on the floor and put
on my outfit so fast and I went out .I kept walking for long
distances, I was in a huge shock. I arrived at this

garden, I set down for a while there, to clear
up my thoughts , I took a deep breath and just looked up to the sky
...

Suddenly I heard a whisper near my ear "Hi"
I looked to my left side and found this guy sitting next to me. He
was browned skin, a tall man.Aged between twenty seven to thirty
five.He had such cute eyes and a beautiful smile. The moment I saw

him I felt like I've known him for a long time
before. "Hello" I replied with a smile on my face, "Excuse
me, but do I know you?" I added ,"I'm not quiet sure you do
but I have this weird feeling that if it's like I've known and seen
you before"

I was surprised of he said. It's like he was
reading my mind, he said every word I was thinking of. I didn't know
what to say to him. So I just stood up and said "I'm sorry, I
have to go now" and I left without looking behind me. I was so
moiety.

I was crossing the road when I almost got hit by
a car. Unfortunately, I had many chances to live, and this one was
one of them. I went home again and I just layed down in my bed and
stared at the ceiling. Here is it again,that weird place and

those weird people. This time I was at a party,
I realized it was Amy's seventeenth birthday. We were just having
alot of fun, and I won't lie I liked being there, young again and
with my soulemate while having alot of fun. I was sitting on

the couch in the living room until a handsome
guy came and set right beside me. The moment he looked at me and I
looked back at his eyes I recognized him. He was the tall man I met
in the jardin but this time he was like ten years younger. 

Although what was happening was scaring me but I
didn't leave or change my place. I just kept sitting there and I just
said "Hello there" with a big smile on my face, "Hi
beautiful, how are you ?" he replied, "I'm fine thanks, are
you a 

friend of Amy ?" I asked "Yes.."
and before he finishes his talk Amy came and set between us and put
her both arms upon our shoulders and held us tightly and close to her
and said "I see here that you two have met", "Nancy
this is Finn, Finn

this is Nancy" she introduced us to
eachother. He said "Nice to meet you Nancy, by the way you have
a beautiful name just like you" and he pulled out his hand for a
handshaking, "Thanks" I said while blushing and I shook his
hand. He kept holding 

it for a while until I moved my hand away. "Well
I guess I'll go now, I'll let the two of you get to know eachother"
Amy said with a cheeky look on her eyes and she winked at me and left
us. We kept talking for hours and I payed no attention to

time until I finally checked on my phone and it
was 7p.m." I'm really sorry, I would've stayed more but my mom
will start getting worried about me, I really have to go now and it
was a pleasure to meet you" I said, "Too bad you have to go
now, the

party is just getting started, well at least can
I have your number? " He said. "Yes, sure" I replied
and I gave him my phone number. He walked with me to the door and
then we had one last look at eachother, "Goodbye and take care"
said Finn with a huge

smile on his face "Bye" I said back. I
left and not wanting it at all, every piece of me wanted to stay,
then I woke up. I waited all day for the night to come so I can sleep
again and dream about that wonderful dream...

The night has come and I was so excited to go to
bed. I was living in another whole world of mine, of my own
imagination inside of my mind. I closed my eyes hoping to see that
Finn guy again. I woke up in the next morning realizing that I dreamt
about

nothing..

It has been three days now without seeing that
dream, I just feel so uncomfortable and I'm upset again...Those
dreams felt more than dreams, they made a perfect sense and no sense
at the same time. I didn't talk to anybody about them because if I
tell anyone

that I'm living the missing part of my life in
my dreams they would probably think I'm crazy or they'll just think I
feel so lonely .Everynight before I slept, I tried hard to imagine
what will happen next but it didn't work out. It's been two weeks
since I haven't seen any of 

those dreams. So I finally thought I should
forget about them and I thought that maybe they were just an odd
coincidence or it's because I miss my friend so much. I found a job,
a secretary in a big company, they pay me really good and it's the
perfect job for the moment. I decided

to redecorate my room and paint it with another
new bright color at least it'll bring life to it and romove the
shield of shadows and depression. While I was emptying my clothes, I
found an old outfit. I could barely remember when did I wear it. Then
it came to my mind that party

in my dream, I was wearing it... I set down on
the bed holding it and finding it hard to believe what did I just
see. I can't even remember from where I bought it or when .The fact
is, I never bought that dress and I never wore it before, I just
found it in the closet and I have no idea

where did it come from. I started searching in
its pockets then I found a piece of paper with a number written on it
and there was no name. I was curious to know whom did that phone
number belonged to, so I just called it.

"Hello" said a voice of a man, I
didn't say anything, "Hello, who is this ?" added the man,
that voice seemed familiar to me, "Hi" I said, "This
may seem weird but I found your number in my closet and I just felt
curious to know whom did it belonged to" I told him. "Haha,
it's fine,

I'm Finn by the way, and you are.. ?" said
the man. Maaan, these terrifying news I keep hearing all the time
have just got me. I'm going to go mad,I'm losing my patience and my
mind. "OMG, YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME" I shouted , "What
? No, I'm not kidding you, why would I joke about my

name? and by the way do I know you ? because
your voice seems familiar" he said, I just hanged up without
saying another word. He kept calling for like an half of an hour but
I didn't pick up. The phone finally stoped ringing... 

I asked my brother to help me with my room and
its painting and stuff. I became exhausted so I told him that I have
to go smell some fresh air and I'll be back soon, and I left him all
alone. I walked utill I found my self in that garden again, it's
situated in the middle of the city near

to an old big building. I set on a bench and I
admired the trees and the roses, until I saw this guy coming, it was
the tall one I met on the other day. He came near to me and set next
to me. "It was you, isn't it ?" he asked, I looked at him
and said "What ? what was me?" "It was you who called

me this morning, I can recognize your voice from
that day we talked in this garden" he answered, "Listen
can't you just leave me alone ! I feel so confused right now and I'm
not in the mood to talk to strangers" I demanded,"
Strangers ? are you really saying this ? how can I be a stranger
while I was

the only one you've ever trusted and ever known,
how can I be a stranger while I loved you like nobody else did and I
just woke up one morning and I found out that you've disappeared
without saying a thing or without leaving a note behind, Nancy? "
he said, I looked at him with confused and shocked

eyes, my face was pale and I couldn't even talk,
"Answer me, how could you do that to me ? how could you? I've
searched for you for years, how could you be so cruel?" he
asked, I put my head down, and then looked back at him and said "Sir,
I was in a coma in the hospital for ten years, I had an accident

when I was sixteen years old, you must've been
mistaken" "What? are you serious? I have come all this long
distances to here this shit from you ?" he said, "I..I,
it's the truth.." and before I could finish he interrupted me
"You're not Nancy who I've known, you're who I have loved,
you're right, I've

must been mistaken" and he stood up and
left without looking back, and I couldn't do a thing, I set there
with my tied hands and tongue...

I went home in the evening, it was 10:00 p.m, I
found my mom waiting for me" Honey where have you been? we were
so worried about you, and why is your face so pale?" she said, I
just looked at her and entered my room and closed the door not saying
a single word to her. I wasn't feeling good, there was too much

stress, I was anxious and upset, I was tired and
confused, I still can't figure out what is happening. I grabbed my
photo album, "Oh, my dear I miss you so much, you've been always
here for me, where are you now? I really need you" I said to my
self while looking to Amy's photos and crying. I cried all night,

untill I fell asleep. I saw what I was
expecting, it was Finn,we were laughing,playing ,messing around and
having a lot of fun in a strange place, I couldn't recognize it, then
there was Amy, she was just sitting and admiring us. I set next to
her and said" What will we do about your pregnancy? did you
tell

your aunt yet ?" She looked at me with a
weird look and said "No" and then she turned her head and
kept her sight directly to the horizon,"So what are you going to
do?" I asked her" I don't know." she replied in a cold
note. I woke up on the next day and I wasn't so happy about this
dream, it was cold and it has

some cruel looks in it.I got dressed and went to
work..

I came home in the evening after a long day of
working, I tried to call Finn, but he didn't respond. So I just had
dinner and went to sleep. On the next day, this weird idea came to my
mind, I decided to go to the hospital that I've been in to ask some
questions. I met my doctor and we went to his office. "Hello

Nancy, it's been a long time ,how are you doing
?" said the doctor, "I'm fine thanks, I'm here because I
have some questions.." I said "Well you can ask whatever
you want young lady" he replied. "When Amy died, was she
pregnant?" I asked. The doctor looked surprised of my question
like if he wasn't expecting me to

ask him such a thing, he stuttered a little bit
and said "Did... did your mother tell you that?" ,"Does
my mother know ?" I asked surprised,"Yes I suppose, didn't
she tell you ?" he asked," No, she didn't,nobody told me
anything, what else does she know and I don't ?" I said "Listen
doctor, you ought to help me, I'm

seeing these weird stuff in my dreams and even
in reality, I have no idea what is happening to me, am I going crazy
? please you have to help me, I needed to consult an expert, just
like you" I added. He looked shocked of what I said" Well ,
you should be hearing this from your own familly, but I see that your
condition

is changing and your memory is making a progress
and it's rare, we didn't think you could remember anything of what
happened that's why we kept it a secret and made you believe that
you've been in a coma for ten years, we were affraid of you to
collapse all over again.." and before he finishes I interrupted
him" Hold on hold

on, WHAT? what the hell are you talking about? a
secret ? collapse ? what ..?" "Okay, this may seem hard for
you to accept it but let me examine you first and I'll tell you
everything after, deal?" he answered " Okay.." . He
tested my sight with a flash-pen, and then he tested my brain with
the X-ray scanner. "This is

impressive, you're completely healed." he
told me, "I'm what? was I ill?" I asked puzzled,"
Alright easily now, I'm going to tell you everything but I need you
to concentrate, Okay?" he demanded,"Ok.." I said."
When you were sixteen years old, you used to date a guy named Finn, I
knew about him from your mother because you

know we're close to eachother,you loved
eachother very much, but it didn't last for too long.One day you
heard a terrible and shocking new from you best friend Amy, she told
you that she was pregnant...from Finn, your lover, at first you
didn't believe her but then he confessed to you that he has been
cheating on you with

your bestfriend. You couldn't handle it so you
grabbed a knife and went to your friend's house and at the moment she
opened the door you stabbed her right in her heart, she died
instantly. On your way home, you got hit by a truck, and it was a
miracle that you have survived but a part of your brain was affected.
You were brought

to the hospital and I personally supervised
you.We did you a brain surgery while we wasn't sure that it could
succes but it did. When you finally woke up, you had some trouble
remembering your familly and your friends. Then things got worst, you
remembered that you've killed your best friend so you just gone mad,
I adviced your

mother to take you to a mental institution,
because your condition didn't need a therapist or a psychotherapist,
you just needed a professional help and care. You spent ten years
there, and you didn't show any changes until the last year of that
decade. So your familly decided to get you out and they decided to
move to a new

place for a new life for you.And they did. One
day you just collapsed and fainted, so you've been brought to this
hospital and it was the day you woke up thinking you've been in coma
and you had a car crush, because with your damaged memory you could
remember only the truck accident and we made you believe that Amy was
with you

and she passed away then." He confessed. I
was stunned, I could barely understand a word of what he said, I was
confused and broken at the same time,"But.. but.. what about
those dreams, what about the drawing, what about Finn what about..."
he intterupt me saying" Those weren't dreams, those were some
hazy shots of what happened

to you within the last few years and you saw
them in the form of a dream.Your damaged memory could not memorise
the actions clearly", "I..I..I have to go now, thanks alot
for your time" I stood up and left directly. He stood up behind
me and said to me while I was walking away" Happy to have you
back Nancy, don't worry everything 

will be alright". I arrived at home
extremely furious" MOM ! MOOOM! where the bloody hell are you?"
I shouted, she came as fast as I screamed" Honey what's wrong,
why are you yelling ?" she asked quietly, "Why ? why didn't
you tell me? did you like destroying me and drvining me crazy? did
you enjoy watching me falling apart?? DID YOU????"

I asked in a terribly angry tone "What ?
what are you saying?" she asked acting like she knows nothing,
"I was at the hospital and I talked to your friend doctor and he
told me everything, it was you who should've told me that" I
added and before she could open her mouth I went to my room and
closed the door with all my strength. I packed

my bags and on my way to leave the house, mom
grabbed my arm while crying and said"Where are you going? please
baby don't leave I'm sorry" I moved my hand away and left. I
stopped a taxi and asked him to take me to a hotel, luckily I was
saving some money. We arrived at the hotel, I entered my room, put
down my bags and went to the bathroom,

I had a shower and after I finished, I wore my
pijamas and layed down on that comfortable bed. As soon as I closed
my eyes I fell asleep right away. When I woke up in the morning the
first person who came in my mind was Finn, So I decided to call him.
He picked up" Hey" he said" Hello, can you come over?
I'm in a hotel and I'm torn into

pieces" I asked "Sure, where are you?"
he answered, I gave him the address and started waiting for him...

               To be continued...