Young Writers Society

Insufferable guilt hiding deep within
Sorrow swiftly flowing through my veins
Painful memories that I try so hard to hide
Unimaginable suffering, breaking me
With every slow, agonizing beat of my heart

Emptiness consuming me, thoughts of suicide
Overpowering my will to fight off
Every bad thought that passes through my mind
A lifetime of having to hide in the darkness
All the secrets I've kept hidden inside
Things no one knows about me
No one will ever know me, not the real me
Not the broken girl I pretend not to be

No one knows what it's like to be me
To be empty and broken, without the slightest shimmer of hope
Gleaming in my deep brown eyes
And what's hidden behind them, no one will ever get to see

I wish it would all go away
I wish it was all so easily deleted
From my past, from my life, from my memory
Things I don't want to hide
But I feel I must just to move on
I try to be strong, I try to forget
But no one knows what I hide
Behind my brown eyes

Left without any guidance, no help
No support, no hope
I lie and say I'm happy, I say that I'm okay
Pretending to be something I'm not
Stooping to a lower level in life
Still hiding in the cold darkness of the night

Liquid silver falling from my brown eyes
Swiftly flowing down my face
Tear stained cheeks of rose red
White satin pillow case, stained with crimson
Hopefully the scars will fade
Hopefully the pain will disappear
Along with memories I try to hide
And the sorrow I feel inside

Hours will pass by, no one will notice that I'm gone
Invisible to society, the superficial world that surrounds me
I'm playing the role of the sad one
But you'll never see what I'm hiding
Behind my brown eyes