Selfish Me

I watch as everyday she puts herself down

I watch as she falls into despair

As she starts

To Drown.

All I do is watch;

As she tries to fit in,

As she fails.

I watch.

I make no move to save her

From this grave she has buried for herself.

You may think it is because I am a cruel person

That may be true

But, I have other reasons.

She comes to class with red eyes

The tear stains still visible

Their paths leaving a salty trail down her cheeks.

She hides her pain

Behind poorly disguised smiles

Pretending to be

Alright.

I continue to watch

Hoping one day to see her true smile again

Not allowing any one else near

Letting her fall into despair

Only to come

And save her.

One day.

On a day

She feels like there's no more hope.

That day

I'll tell her

she was never alone to begin with.

That day,

One Day,

She will smile.

Because now,

Dear,

You are not alone.

Let those tears fall

And leave that fake smile behind

Because you no longer need it.

I will teach you how to swim

And will help you plant flowers in that hole,

Which took you so long to dig.

I am sorry I just watched for so long

But sometimes

You need to fall a few times before you can walk.

And I was learning how to fly.