Panic

Air rushing in and out of your lungs
You don’t know how to react
You chest is heaving a mile a minute
Your heart about to burst out of your chest
You’re trapped, enclosed,
Imprisoned in a situation you can’t escape

Thoughts racing, mind swirling,
You can barely breathe
Unable to function in the world around you
You wonder if you’ll suffocate on your own terror

Your heart tells you to relax
That everything will work out in the end
But you know it won’t
For you know he won’t come back to comfort you tomorrow
His memory floating on the winds of yesterday
Never to return

Your body is still heaving
The walls seeming to grow ever closer around you
The world, in your mind’s eye
Is coming to an abrupt and bitter end

Someone speaks to you
But you can’t hear them or won’t listen
So great is the depths of your despair
They might as well not exist
Consumed as you are in your personal nightmare

It seems as if time itself has frozen
As you struggle to gain your composure
The tears are still fresh on your face
As more cascade down your cheeks in rivulets
Hands shaking, knees locked,
You can’t move but an inch

Hands gently move you away from the rubble;
Your car is nothing but scrap metal now
Burning in the daylight along with him
Your heart, your everything
Gone…forever

Once alone
With family and friends
The panic slowly subsides
The laughter seems to drive the pain away
You sigh in anguish in spite of it
For you know the agony will return

Isolated in the darkness
The pain returns
An ache in your heart
That doesn’t go away
The tears return
The agony about to tear you
Into a million little pieces
You wonder when your heart
Will be happy once again