Falling Up

You feel like you are falling,

And that no one would really care,

Yet you don't want to hurt anyone,

So you use that fake smile that you always wear.

You try to hide it,

But you want someone to know,

And it gets harder everyday,

Trying not to let it show.

You try new things,

To keep your thoughts at bay,

But as your days get shorter,

You know that your world is slowly turning gray.

You then begin to think,

About what your friends would do,

But you stop yourself,

Thinking that you'll eventually pull through.

You know that it's getting worse,

So you decide to have a talk,

And they listen as you speak,

But you start to have a mental block.

You lie and cut your words short,

Telling them half but not the whole,

So you walk yourself home,

Swallowed by your dreary death toll.

You hear their laughs,

And you let them bring you down,

Your anger begins to rise,

And on the inside you slowly breakdown.

You know that you have to change,

Since your life is all up to you,

But it's so hard to be like,

All these people you truly look up to.

You struggle to speak,

Always haunted by the possibility,

Of being turned away,

So you disappear, hiding within your cloak of invisibility.
You then begin to think,

That there is no silver lining,

So you lock up your future,

And then go back to hiding.

You feel like you are falling,

But just to let you know,

There will always be someone,

To catch you down below.

Your presence in this world,

It's changed quite a lot,

People wouldn't be the same,

Without the input of your thought.

So carry on,

And don't give out,

Don't let this world win,

You will pull through without a doubt.

It can't go on forever,

You won't always fall,

Just know that people do care,

They'll help you through it all.

And please understand,

That there are others just like you,

Don't ever forget,

That they know just what you're going through.

Don't close your eyes,

And don't fall asleep,

Stay awake until the sun rises,

Then set yours troubles aside in this great big heap.

There will be a day,

When you can breathe a sigh of relief,

And you'll look back today,

Happy you let go of all that grief.

There is a future,

That so called silver lining,

You just have to wait for it,

It's somewhere out there shining.

Don't let go,

And don't give up,

No matter what they all say,

Just keep your head up.

So cast away all your burdens,

Your sadness and depression,

Don't let them hold you back,

Because you will break free from this suppression.

Don't die now,

No not ever,

There will be a day when you will be caught,

You will say goodbye to this stormy weather.

-E. S. C.