I always feel so alone and so afraid. Even in my best days it's always lingering, hiding in the depths of my deepest insecurities and never too far away. Every time I overcome it and vanquish this omniscient foe, it never ceases to come back. It breaks me down, shows me my own mortality and plants seeds of despair and anguish in my mind. No matter who's next to me raising their swords to help me fight off this blackness, I know that I must battle it alone. "Yknow, there's medicine for that kind of stuff", "Try to sleep it off", "it's not real", "it's all in your head". I don't want to be reliant on some concoction made in a lab just to get me through the day. I wish that this feeling of hopelessness wasn't real. Sometimes I really do think that it's all in my head... I have been cursed.
Meditation and various breathing exercises are my refuge, I find peace in the silence. I limit myself to caffeine and any other stimulants that I believe will cause something in my brain to trigger panic. My mind is now a solid fortress keeping the grief at bay. It has been two years since I've had a panic attack take control of me. As much as I hate to admit it my panic attacks have let me feel more alive because after the smoke clears and the flames die down I am still standing unharmed and relieved. I am free, I am blessed.
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It's good to see how someone else deals with panic attacks. I have seen that not many people actually believe that panic attacks could count as a medical condition. My sister gets them most of the time, so I can experience how someone acts. I have found out that sweet smelling candles and incense can work while meditating to calm one self. I don't exactly understand what you mean by the fact that they help you feel more alive though. I can understand the feeling of being stronger than what is giving you panic attacks because after it has subsided I have seen my sister smiling a bit more and able to slowly start to conquer that has been hurting her. Eh...Maybe that actually does go with feeling alive as well. Ah, well. Very well written, and hopefully you're feeling much better than before.
I hope you don't get panic attacks as frequently now. I've never experienced one but there have been times when stress and pain come together to feel overwhelming. I really liked your mini-article, especially the last line, because it sheds some light on the type of society we live in today. It is a very stressful world for teens who try to be perfect and get by in life, and for people who suffer from panic attacks, anxiety, and depression it is even harder. Not everyone accepts the fact that some people have a harder time coping with things than others, but your article made perfect sense and I congratulate you for it. I have no criticism. Good job!
Thank you. I don't get them that often as I used to and when I do it is just a minor discomfort that I disregard within 7 or so minutes. I'm glad that my piece can connect to those who experience panic attacks and those who suffer from overall stress.
Hello, there LadyOfTheDeathRoses here for a review!
I have to say this is an amazing and powerful piece of work, you put something that so many people suffer through into two paragraphs, I myself also suffer from panic attacks and hate them with a passion because of how helpless I feel, yet I refuse to choke down medication knowing that it only gives a temporary relief. Okay, admittedly I am awful at reviews because so many people say what I was going to say and I can’t find anything else to point out. So, all in all this is a wonderful piece of work and I enjoyed reading it. I look forward to reading some more of your work and hopefully actually reviewing it.
LOTDR over and out.
Well thank you. It makes me happy. Just you sayin that you like my piece makes my confidence rocket. Hopefully I will have something out every week or so.
Hey Tiny here!
Okay I have nothing to review here just a note. I personally get panic attacks when in large bodies of water, crowded pools, small areas, and crowded rooms. I honestly love how much I connect to this poem as I refuse my pills and just take it on. I get those comments every time I have a panic attack in public and they only make it worse I know. Silence and making your self as small as possible is the only way to stop it. I am just congratulating you on how well you covered this topic.
Keep writing
Yes, they are extremely uncomfortable and very frightening but they are not impossible to control. It might take a while to get them under control but anyone can do it. Are you the controller of your thoughts or are your thoughts the controller of you?
My thoughts usually control me. Thanks for the tip of encouragement c:
My friend literally had a panic attack on a field trip recently. We had to call 911 and everything.
But I digress. Onto le review~
The only thing wrong with this piece is that you're missing a comma here and there. A few of them:
Comma after "days."
Comma is needed after "me."
Replace that comma with a semi-colon.
Comma after "fortress."
Two commas are needed here: one after "admit it" and one after "die down." Also, the bolded part needs to be rephrased because you switch tenses here. It would read better as "my panic attacks have left me feeling more alive." What say you?
I think that's the end of the nitpicks.
On the story/narrative itself: I loved it. You did a sweet and simple way of sharing your experience with panic attacks and how you avoid them. That last paragraph was especially powerful, because you used such beautiful words to describe how you feel after the attacks, and how they have changed you. If there's one thing you want to improve on, then work on the emotional part of this. How did you feel during the attacks? Before, during, and afterwards. How did the help from your family and friends make you feel? This would have been so much better if it had an emotional tone to it, to help strengthen it and deliver a more powerful impact on the reader.
Overall, this was very well written, and I enjoyed reading and reviewing it. Thank you for sharing your experience.
Thank you for the critique. I haven't written for quite some time hopefully I'll start doing more. I have an aversion I commas as you can tell haha. Do you know any sites helping with grammar??
http://grammar.ccc.commnet.edu/grammar/commas.htm
http://www.grammarbook.com/punctuation/commas.asp
http://www.grammar-monster.com/tests/test_commas.htm
Does that help?
First of all, you callmeike are an extreamly well spoken individual. I envy your speaking skills. Second this tenitively tilted story moved me. You keep on writing, this here story is great. Best of luck Spense
Thank you, it really means a lot that you think that.