The sun rose up in the east andmorning was here.
I was supposed to go meet my mother: the one who left me when I was five. Until now I thought how could she? But now she had a chance to tell me how she could leave me and give me her reason. Maybe one day she could been my mother, but right now all I knew was that she wasn't right now.
I got up, brushed my hair and teeth. Too nervous to eat breakfast I went to my beat up car. God I had to get the dam thing fixed or just a new one.I droveup to the address she sent me in a letter a week ago.
It had said: To my daughter,
I am your mother and I know you must have a million questions for me so come meet me at 224 California street at beach cafe at 10 a.m. for coffee. I will explain then.
When I got the letter my aunt was with me and she was astonished that her sister had written to me because she had acted like she'd dropped off the face off the planet. What my aunt had told me about her sister, wasthatmy mom had dropped me off andtold her,
“I need you to watch her for awhile.” My aunt just took me in. When ever I asked she told me that and nothing else. I had dreamed of my mother every since, andhad asked about my dad but my aunt didn’t know anything. So that’s all I knew about my parents: mom left, dad non-existent. That waswhy I am gong to see the women who had said, “ I need you to watch her awhile”. I bet my aunt didn’t know watch her for a while meant 12 years.
I sat in my car forfive minutes to consider whether to leave or to go inside. I chose the latter. I got out of the car, checked the address for the billionth time and walked in. Then it dawned on me I have no clue what she looked like. I couldn’t remember what she looked like, only vague fragments like the lighting in our old house or the smell of her. A summer breeze and something else never could figure it out. My aunt never showed me any pictures or anything. The only thing I had from her was a necklace of a feather on fire, and on the back of the necklace had a beautiful inscription Dakota. I wore the damn thing everywhere a constant reminder that she had left me, but it was my only connection to her, and that was why I wore it.
I looked down at the necklace hoping it would show me something a sign, anything. But it didn’t. But just as I was turning to leave a woman walked in and stared strait at me and the first thing I noticed was a feather in front of a round ball maybe, the sun, on her neck. She opened her mouth and said “I didn’t think you would come, I thought my sister would oftold you not to, but maybe I was wrong.”
I gave her a once over, she had chestnut hair like mine, she was tall about 5.8, and her eyes were blue as the clear ocean and her pail skin compared to my tanned beach look was the only difference I could see. She was so beautiful, she looked like she was in her 30's.
She looked at me too; I couldn’t read her expression.
“ So you want to talk or what?” I told her.
She looked at me and said, “that’s not a nice way to talk to your mother, but I guess I don’t get the right.”
“No you don’t.”
“Ok do you want to sit down and I order us something, what would you like?” she said in a flat tone.
“Could you get me an iced tea, with two sugars.”
She turned around and got in line. And then I looked for a table in the back of the room. The sun shined through the mono glass window, and you could see the ocean from here the waves rolling back and forth. It was quiet beautiful. But how could I think about the view when my mother wanted to talk to me after ditching me for 12 years. What the hell was she here for, this better by good after 12 years of nothing. My mom took her seat a cross from me. And stirring her iced tea said “So you probably want to know why I came back and wrote to you so I will start there.”
“Well first, I wrote to you because I need help.”
What the? “Why my help, because A: I don’t know you B: I don’t think you know me, actually you don’t know me and C: why the hell would I help the women who dumped meon her sister to deal with.”
She looked at me, just looked at me.“What, you don’t think I am right? Because for sure in hell I am right.”
“After you hear what I have to say you will change your mind.”
“Fine this better be mind blowing.”
“Ok first lets finish our drinks.”
“What the? What about the mind changing news?!”
“Coming soon promise”
God, this women is crazy, but apparently she’s my mother. First coming out of the blue after 12 fucking years, she suspected me to help her, the one who left me. She thinks she can just do this; well she is so wrong, I don’t even now her. The only person I know and trust is the one my own mother dumped me with. How did my mother think I would help her? She didn’t help me when I broke my leg, when I got my period, when I had my first break up from a serious relationship. She left me.
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