I used to think I had attained
immortality
when I ran my fingers across your porcelain cheek
and felt so clever when I played against the odds,
and while I know logically that you were probably warm,
I can only remember my hands cold
stiff and frozen, arthritic like the hands of the clock I used to stare
at while I gritted my teeth and tried to force those days
to tick by.
I remember when we tied a noose
and hanged that dog
from the lighting rig in the school hall.
Pretty fucked-up for tenth-graders,
but all in a day's work for a drama teacher.
I am beginning to forget
that you smell like the same dried rose petals
that sit in a bowl on my coffee table, and your skin
feels like new parchment and crinkles at the corners
of your eyes like the edges of your sighs
when we used to sing each other to sleep,
and the click of your heels on the hardwood floor
like that persistent clock that seems to be the only one
who doesn’t know it’s only right twice a day,
and the peal of your laughter that sounds
like that glass bell before I dropped it
but if I used the shards to cut my throat
and dusted my lifeblood for fingerprints
I have no doubt I would find yours.
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