I think there is sunlight behind these clouds,
but they're too thick, too old and gray;
it's like
the passing of time between success
and I hate them, these scars.
I think failure is just failure, void,
wasted sounds and heartbeats;
come with me downard, where it's lonely.
It makes me want to walk. Synthetic sunlight
is too much for me, this factory shit—
I need real, I need soul-searched
like mud-muffled footsteps. I'd rather commiserate
with the trees, because they don't talk; I'd rather
let these shadows
consume me,
than rebirth in floodlight. My tears echo upward
into space, a vision, a dream-lit and dream-crushed.
The clouds thicken, ice-hardened depressions;
I drink in the sunlit spiderwebs, like dew, but they are as parched
as I. The rain is just a mirage, just a mirage.
Try letting yourself be sucked into chants
and spiraling patriotism—but you can't even survive
Indian frenzies, religion, money. It's all headwear,
sacrificial, all that—
it's like
spider-spun despondence, woven into gray
and black. The clouds are rolling, keep rolling.
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