Room
I sit here in silence, watching the raging storm through the open window. The waves of the sea pummel the rocks, abusing their very existence before crashing onto the shore, like two unstoppable forces colliding. The salt lingers in the air, clinging on to my tongue with all dependency. An impenetrable curtain of water sweeps the surface of the sea and as I look up to the sky, the rain pounds on my upturned face.
My uncle always tells me how dangerous the world is; how I am much safer in my room, where he can look after me. But I tire of seeing the same green walls day in and day out. I want to touch the soft leaves on a tree, to feel the spray of the sea of my face. I want to walk on the beach below and let the sand sift through my curled toes. I long to have the sun’s rays beat on my back… but I cannot torture myself with these thoughts.
It’s the memories that I find the hardest to bear, yet I can’t understand where they come from. I see a beautiful woman, with long auburn hair and dark eyes smiling down on me. Her face seems so familiar, but I can’t seem to place it.
If I ask my uncle about her, he makes out that she is just from the land of imagination, made up in my mind and now I cannot tell the difference between dreams and reality. I don’t think this is true. I'm not going mad… am I?
‘It’s a bad place out there,” my uncle says, when I ask him if I can go outside just for an hour or so. “You’re as fragile as a flower, and you know I keep you up here for your own safety. There’s war out there. War, and suffering and hate. You’re much better off staying inside.”
I remain silent; I have heard of war. I know of the hate, of the destruction, of the pain and sacrifice. The occasional calm is welcoming, but war nonetheless is beyond peril and meaning, like every single soldier is an empty container of what once cradled a soul.
Is that all there is to this world? Is there not some good in humanity? There cannot simply be good and evil, but being trapped in this room I will never know. I have to get out. It isn’t a want anymore; it’s a need. A need that’s nestled it’s way deep into my heart. There is so much to see, so much to do, so much for me to experience.
One day, I think, one day. That’s the thought that keeps me going. One day I won’t have to fight within myself to do what it is right, what is good. One day the path I should take will all be clear in my head and there will be more questions. I won’t need to hide my thoughts, my hopes, dreams and desires. I will show them off to the world.
And I will be me.
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