When I was 17 weeks pregnant, after a common ultrasound, the doctor told me my baby had a condition. He called it anencephaly.
Later, while doing research, I learned that anencephaly is a serious fetal defect of the central nervous system that affects approximately one child for every thousand births. Also, about 25% of anencephalic children who live to the end of the pregnancy die during delivery; 50% have a life expectancy of between a few minutes and 1 day, 25% live up to 10 days.
I could not wait until the next day. I had the doctor's personal number, so as soon as I finished my research, I called him.
"What are my options?", I asked, just as he picked up the phone.
He didn't need to ask who I was or what I was talking about.
"Well, you could do an abortion".
"Or...", I said.
"Or you could have it. But, Eileen, remember there is nothing you can do for this child. It is damaged. It is going to die a few hours after the birth and you..."
"Don't call my baby 'it'. And don't say he or she is damaged."
I hung up on him.
For the rest of the night I kept crying, trying to think what I would do next.
I had run away from home, a home of an abusive father, two alcoholic brothers and an ill mother, at the age of 15. After that there wasn't another option for me and I turned to prostitution. One day, a local businessman came to me as a client and we had an affair. I knew he was the baby's father.
He took me off the streets, gave me a nice house, an allowance and came visit three times a week. I knew I couldn't trust him because he had already said that if it happened one day, I would be alone.
At morning I got out of bed, dark circles under my eyes, and called the doctor again.
"I will have the baby", was the all I said.
For the rest of my pregnancy I stayed at a friend's house. She had also been a prostitute and kept reminding me how stupid I was being.
But finally, it was time for my child's birth.
At the moment I saw her face I knew I had done the right thing. She was so beautiful...
Three days had passed but, for obvious reason, I couldn't take her home.
At the end of the fourth day of her life, a nurse woke me up, Jordan in her arms.
"It is time, Eileen", said the nurse.
I didn't need to ask what she was talking about. I took Jordan, looked at her pretty face.
She was struggling to breathe, her lips were already blue.
"I can't say how much I am happy right now, sweetie", I told her "I'm happy because God has blessed me, trusting me with one of his angels. I'm happy because I could be part of your life. And, Jordan, you are the very best part of me and I love you."
A few seconds later, Jordan was gone.
I don't regret a single decision I made in all my life because, wrong or not, they brought me Jordan.
And I am sure I am a better person now because of her.
I don't know why I decided to tell my story, but now I did I hope it can help every parent that faces this situation eventually. Don't give up on life. Let the world know about these angels that come to our lives to change us, to make us good, to make us better.
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