(According to my wish if I wished I had died I would have wished for something else and thus I would have lived - You should have said 'you wished to live' and then I'd have died)
Granted, that was improper English and according to your own Ultimate Proper World plan you are executed.
For I who am poor have only my dreams I spread my dreams under your feet . . .
. . . tread softly for you tread on my dreams.
We are masters of our silences, and slaves of our words
In short, Mrs. Pontellier was beginning to realize her position in the universe as a human being, and to recognize her relations as an individual to the world within and about her. — Kate Chopin, The Awakening