I always did suck at titles, hehe.
So I'm a bit late, if you'll excuse me. I did write a poem yesterday, and I suppose I'll write today's now. But first:
April 6th (I'll admit, I do have a soft spot for this one)~
The headlights in your eyes guide me out
Of the tunnels I’ve dug myself into,
Among bats and worms and other things
That live in the dirt of wishes that crumbled
Before they had a chance to take a breath.
I am an old ragdoll, a rough stitching of
Muscle, curve, and woman parts, held together
By ivy-twined threads of pain and love –
And yes, sometimes, I love the pain
Of loving until it is too painful to exhale
Because the air tastes so sweetly (bitterly!)
Of your skin and your tongue and you.
I have dust inside my cracked spaces,
In the grooves of my fingernails and in
The lines of my face, settled onto me
When I stopped to stare at everything that
Makes the taste of you something I crave:
The folds of your eyelids and the feel
Of how your arms are now woven into
My fabric fingertips, frayed from holding on
Always too tight to things that made me unravel.
And this shovel that was my only road
Away from hurt and loss, but mostly guilt
With sharp black claws and pointed teeth,
Is now dissolved into the grime of me,
Along with the bats and worms and other things
That tore into my ragdoll heart, made me
Damaged and weathered and worn out.
But even these disintegrated parts look new,
Look shiny and golden and brilliant.
Because now I know that well-kept secret:
I am beautiful because I love someone
Who loves me for all my broken pieces.
April 7th (here goes...)~
She sits across from me and stares,
Watching things not in my world.
I eat with my mouth and want more;
She eats with her mind, wanting less
Of what this world has offered her,
Things that taste sickeningly sweet or
Otherwise soggy and over-salted
From the tears I’d never seen her shed.
I reach out to touch her shoulder,
Afraid she will crumble under my touch
And I will have to trade my soul’s sister
For a handful of bittersweet remorse.
I ask her words I do not think about,
Because my lips shape them in my sleep:
“Are you okay? Please eat something.”
She smiles and shakes her head,
Recites her part of this overplayed script:
“I’m fine. No thanks, I’m not hungry.”
I swallow the raw lump in my throat;
Her satiety makes my stomach angry,
So I do the only thing I know how:
Cross my fingers and take a bite
Of this mystery meat labeled Life.
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