the following statements set the scenery for your poem. extrapolate.
It's mid-morning. There's light cloud in the sky. You're high up in a mountain. There's a lonely feel to the place.
pinnacle - Number Sixty
i tread the mountains in mid-morning, still in the middle of mourning the precious hours of sleep i lost. there are people who trapise these crags right beside me, yet there is no talking, only heavy breathing and quiet grunts. i decide to let these legs meander from the group, for then it is just me. i've made a lot of mistakes, but this was not one of them. i whispered to nature, and nature whispered back, the cold wind reddening my ears. everywhere i took a step seemed to lead to a precipice or cliff, yet i did not feel my life in jeopardy like some might. i searched for a plateau, on which i would address my problems to as i draw out a checkered picnic blanket. together, we feast on lunch, nature, on the soft clouds and i, on raspberries i picked just the other day.
i wash the dishes in early morning, sunshine gleaming through the smudged windows, glass delicate as i and as firm as you were. potted plants lined up at the windowsill, each getting their fair share of sunshine; i thought this must have been a dream. fickle as you were, you sat at the table and read me poetry from a book you borrowed from your mother. i didn't like it much, but i loved your voice, so i tolerated it. when i was done, i let the dishwater out of the drain, left with wrinkled fingers and thoughts to ponder on. quietly, you set the book to the side and dried my hands off; some things are too good to be true is a saying i once believed, but then i met you.
gems depraved, poison in their blood. i wanted to take a moment to think of just flexibility, love, and trust, but i can't when these thoughts are trapped inside my head-- i was trapped inside a mirror for years and only now someone's noticed me? i can't bare to look at the sea. not after that, not after her; Jasper, i try her name on my lips but i get caught in an ellipse-- i thought you were stronger than that. i thought maybe you could learn the diamonds were poisoned, a vial of cyanide trickled into their wine. i suppose i thought wrong; is it odd to say that i'm roommates with the person that killed the only one i fused with?
left in vertigo, i steady myself on an oak tree. i wanted to spin like the earth, to see how it felt forever hurdling counter-clockwise, head pointing towards Polaris. it isn't easy being the earth, paying homage to all living creatures.
you still wear the mourning on your sleeve, like a fairisle sweater in april. i think of how it embodies your grief, only scraps and tatters and stains left over your shoulders.
she stitched fireflies into the night sky you wear over your torso. you still wear the night on your sleeve like a fairisle sweater in april.
isn't it time to move on from this aching? it's been three months, i'll put it in a cardboard box with her pictures and store it in the attic if it helps you move on.
i can hear her echo in old home videos that i watch on the television when no one else is home. i can see her dancing in the photographs that hang on the wall there in her memory.
in her memory because we left her behind in january wanting to begin anew. i can see her roaming the halls at night, avoiding every floorboard that has
been notorious for creaking almost as if she doesn't want me to hear her. i can feel her in the room when no one else is around, a presence that i'm not even sure is there. she is not dead, but she is dead to me.
I love the quiet grief that has spread itself comfortably throughout your latest three poems. I really do love the earth, one, too, so don't give up on it!
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fluent in//broken hearts//breaking hearts - Number Sixty-seven
i am fluent in broken hearts, in misery, almost as if it were my mother tongue. there is a city on my bedside counter, of bowls and plates and of silverware, a civilization built over the past week. is it depressing, how much time i spend watching infomericials on the tv? brain starting to concave, almost like a valley.
i search and search in the ball pit for my childhood, this is where i lost it. it is slithering away, shrieking like a child who cannot contain themselves.
there is a chasm between me and the person withering in the other room. mother, must your hands deflower? i ask, coming into the living room where i know soon i'll have to change the name, time slipping through these nimble fingers. i massage her aching bones, at least i can purge her pain, if only for a moment.
i am fluent in breaking hearts, even if i intend to make amendments. too bad Rosetta Stone doesn't offer that language.
I'll be drinking wine in Antarctica, regardless of where you are, frost covering the top of the glass, I set it down in the perpetual snow. i lay, belly to the earth, sliding around on the ice, headfirst into everything. if i die out here in the bitter cold, no one else would have to watch me go, the ice my floor, my hospital bed, my coffin. if i could die with a penguin throatily quacking in my ear, that would be enough.
This is the end. I gasp and gasp for air, body vulnerable to the crimson sky. With a sideways glance, I look over at the chains on these wrists, on these scarred ankles. The clouds are not idle, for they run rampant in this place that I have found myself in. Left alone with these thoughts, the most brutal torment. And yet, this is the beginning.
Prompt: Wrote this off a song I was listening to by the same name, and here's what I came up with.
chronic sunshine - Number Seventy
there is chronic sunshine until the sun decides to detonate like a hand grenade. how funny, the entity that single-handedly keeps the frost from covering our skin is also the entity that could sear the same skin off. chronic sunshine until i pull the blankets over this head filled of cotton, yet it still shines through. chronic sunshine, a condition that we all have to live with down here in california.
i let the water run cold. i let my hair out the ponytail that it is normally bound with.
in the shower, i think of how two heads are better than one, with mine pressed against the rusty showerhead, ideas slipping through these slender fingers and into the drain; a baby tsunami spiraling and spiraling and spiraling and i am left dizzy, almost nauseous.
i gaze upon a distorted reflection on the grimy walls of the shower, shocked to see two eyes staring back at me, my shower thoughts.
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