Hometown
Always feel like driving north will freeze
the anxiety, the thoughts of money and work and
how will I be me,
and the homesickness.
But when I stop driving I feel
more homesick than before.
The people who bought our old house tore down
the fences we built, hours of
post-hole diggers and unraveled wire.
They filled in the marsh on Starville,
where cattails lined the ditches and
red-winged blackbirds
made their nests
and my sisters and I
hunted tadpoles.
The cafe where my dad ordered poutine for breakfast
is closed now.
Just another empty-eyed facade on the river-front.
The church is still standing, there on
South Water Street,
but our priest has moved on and school attendance
dwindles daily.
Closing soon,
the cracked and barren car park says.
I wanted to come home but
my parents live four states away now
and my grandfather is dead
and my grandmother is depressed and confined
to a wheelchair
and I'm more homesick now than I was
when I left.
Always feel like driving north will freeze
the truth of reality burning inside me,
but I guess I didn't drive far enough.
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