Deep

Lately I have been very depressed... At least I think it is depression.
I have not told my parents and I am not planning to tell them any time soon. Its not bad its just always on my mind. It could be love or depression. But it feels as if it is a mixture of them both. Well here I go...

I am an odd 12 year old girl. I am energetic and crazy, I love to do sports, read and write. I hung out with boys and I was quite happy. But now that I have gone into grade 7 my life has changed. I think I am changing. Not the way I think or do. But the things I like and dislike. And right now it is boys. I am beginning to think deferentially about a certain boy in my class... You might have heard about him in my blog. Well he drives me crazy. He is in grade 8 and I really like him. Almost all the girls in my class and some of the boys know that I have feelings for him. They talk about it behind my back and I am beginning to think even my own friends are betraying me...
One girl in my class my friend Vivan guessed who I liked and I told her not to tell a soul. She promised and gave it away to another one of my friends Ayan...

So today I am enjoying my gym class and Sharee (Friend) comes up to me and says Oh Bryan and Jennifer know about you liking Taylor. They where talking about it in the bus today. I go WHAT! How did they find out? Then I think well Vivan already gave it away once and she sites next to Dailia who hangs out with Jennifer who is friends with Bryan. So it was obvious she told them. So I asked her if she did and of coarse she said no!
So I have been pissed at her for the whole day.
Then right at the end of the day she starts to get all nice with me again. Like nothing happened and she new I was mad with her!

So now I am so stressed and depressed I could cry...
I heard Jennifer whispering to Malika in class. And they looked pretty suspicious!
I think Jennifer has spread the word around.
I am so mad! Arg... And no one cares.
I really hope that Taylor likes me. I really do... Not the 3 other girls that like him...
Pick me Taylor pick me!

I will continue my depression over the next while... So enjoy my sorrows.

~ Gwen

I'm not sure that you actually want this critiqued as a piece of writing so maybe it belongs in the lounge or about the authors? If you do on the other hand, let me know and I'll come back and give you some tips.

As for your situation, don't let them get to you. People are forever gossiping and it doesn't really matter who told who and it may seem like a big deal now but everyone will forget as soon as they find something else to gossip about. If your friend says she didn't tell anyone then you have to decide if you trust her enough to believe her and if not then perhaps she isn't worth being friends with.

What you need to do though is talk to Taylor. Find out how he feels about you and then at least you know where you stand with him. If he likes you then great, you can take it from there and if not, it isn't the end of the world. You could still start building a friendship with him and perhaps in time he would come to like you.

Whatever you do, try to be happy and try not to worry about things like love. You're young, you're sweet and you're intelligent so enjoy yourself and leave troubles such as boys until you're older.

Yea, I'm with Kitty, I'm pretty sure you really just wanted to post a journal entry...not to have it critiqued. Try your blog on your profile. On the home page in the left navigation bar there should be a link that says "Edit/Create Your Blog". You can post these things there.

Wow. Thank you.
That really made me feel better.
Well it turns out he does know and he doesn't like me back.
But you know what I DON'T CARE!
I am free. Maybe he will become my friend. We play foot ball together some times.
But I think I have finally pulled through my love.
Thank you so much! Your grate!

Gwenevire

I shall indeed enjoy your sorrows.
Well, the blog would be the place for this. But narf, from what you've told me, he likes you now, so hoorah!
Anyways. That was completely unhelpful, be since he likes you, what else can I say?
Narf!
-Ayra

Thanks Ayra XD