Rated 16 for slight swearing. This is merely to rid myself of frustration. Feel free to pick it apart.
Dude,
What am I meant to say anymore? Am I meant to tell you how I feel or am I meant to simply let it go? Your sister told me that she didn't care; our best friend tried to get us together. Everyone else could see we were so damned perfect for each other. I could feel it in my bones. I know for sure that I felt it when your hand entwined with mine and when we sat together on the coach in silence. It was okay though, wasn't it? We had each other and we didn't give a damn about anyone else, even though rumours were spread. We were happy, wrapped up in each other's embrace.
"Do you think we would...?" I can still hear the words you used as the coach pulled to a halt. I can hear them as if you're standing right next to me, your breath whispering in my ear. God-damnit, I can feel it. That feeling shakes me. It makes me want to curl up into the fetal position and cry. I don't want to listen to your voice in my head because it will make it hurt all the more.
I can still hear my squeal as you lifted me off the ground and attempted to pass me to Charlie. You didn't let go though, did you? Your arms were around my waist, holding me close to you. I wanted to remain like that forever. I liked that feeling. It made me feel special. Doesn't every girl want that? I know I do.
Then the teacher made us move and we shuffled along the corridor, your mates making remarks about my petite height. I laughed and took it because the truth was, I didn't care. I had you. That was all I needed. You were all I needed.
Your friends kept on disappearing and reappearing; it started to get annoying. "Oh go away!" I finally snapped. Charlie asked whether it was literal or metaphorical; I knew that phrase would one day come back to haunt me. I rolled my eyes and he asked if you wanted him to leave so he went to find the bathroom. We made a mad dash for it and as we laughed, I asked what it was you had planned to say to me the other day, on the coach.
My heart froze when you mentioned about us being 'together.' I wanted to turn around and hug you right then and there but you ruined it, you bloody freak. You ruined it! You said we couldn't be together because we wouldn't work. You didn't say why; you just left me, utterly speechless as I wondered what exactly had just happened. Then Charlie turned up and you just said I was leaving. I watched you walk away and then I ran towards my friends. Ran.
You ruined it all. You came into my life and trashed my perfect fantasy. You bombarded your way into my heart and refused to leave. You held my tight against your slender frame and let me cry when things were difficult. You were somebody I trusted. I trusted you with my heart and you smashed it with your bare hand.
I wanted you to know. I loved you. No, that's a lie. I love you. I always will. I'm merely sorry. I've cried my tears; I'm done now. Goodbye.
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