Tears stained Alex’s face as she sobbed in her room. The last three days had been tough. Her parents and sister tried to get her to come out, but they didn’t understand.
‘Go away!’ Alex called to the door behind where her sister stood with a plate of food.
‘Al, come on! I want to help you!’ Called her sister, Fern. ‘If you just open up… look, you’ve been in there for 3 days! You at least need to eat.’
‘I don’t need help. Go AWAY!’ and Alex threw a glass ornament at the door, which shattered as soon as it touched the wood. She didn’t need help. No one understood what was going on. It felt as though she were the only one that had ever been heartbroken. It was true she felt like an idiot for ever trusting someone like Evan, but no one knew what it felt like, just to be close to him, to be in love. Alex sobbed harder at the thought of the word.
‘I j-just want to, to be a-alone!” She stuttered. “I’ll come when… when I’m ready!’ Alex’s words were barely understood, for her tears now fell into her mouth, making it hard to breathe. She threw her head back onto the pillow, which now had a mark from where her head had lay for three days.
‘Come on! It’s pasta for dinner tonight. Mmm…’ Called Fern, attempting to wave some of the smell under the door.
‘I’ll die of heartbreak before I die of starvation!’ Alex called back.
‘Come on! That Evan bloke was a jerk anyway!’
‘I know, and I trusted him! Why do you think I’m so upset?’
‘Well I actually thought it was because you have issues,’ Fern replied jokingly. Alex gulped. This was the one thing she hadn’t told her sister, and they shared everything with each other. There was nothing to say to that comment, so Alex just continued with her signature line, ‘Go away!’ She heard footsteps finally retreat down the stairs and sat up to wipe her tears as she remembered.
3 Days Earlier
Alex scraped the remainder of the blush out of the container as the phone rang. She answered it.
‘Hey, babe!’ she exclaimed when she realised it was Evan.
‘Hi. Um, just calling to say there’s a change of plans. I can’t come out tonight because my parents have this presentation thing for work. Er… I’ll call and arrange another date,’ he said quickly. Alex drooped her head in dismay.
‘Oh, okay. I’ll see you then,’ she said, trying to hide her disappointment. She hung up, falling to the floor. Okay, get a grip, she thought, He’s busy with his parents, not another girl. But she wasn’t so sure, so she pulled herself up from the ground and left the empty house. She locked the door on the way out and walked quickly up the street to Evan’s house.
It was only a fifteen minute walk, but Alex took her time to get there, stopping to smell the roses. She finally arrived at the front. His ruined barbed-wire fence had been cut in the middle as a sort of entrance and the dirt path had random objects lying everywhere. Though the yard was a mess, the house was beautiful stone with untamed ivy racing up towards the slated roof.
Alex gingerly stepped through the hole in the barbed-wire and up the path. She raised her hand to knock on the door, but decided against it. It would be too easy for him to hide if she showed herself. It was time to do some spying. She darted around the back and was greeted with the slobber of Evan's dog, Radish.
"Shoo, Radish. Go on, get outta here," she whispered at the dog. Unfortunately for her, Radish didn't understand and instead jumped up, putting his poors on her chest. "Sit, bad dog! Ow! Stop that." She peeked in the window where she could see the lounge room. No one was in there. She carefully pulled her strapless dress up. It would have been a good idea to change before I left, she thought as Radish continued to slobber on her feet. She walked around a bit further and spotted a ladder behind the shed.
Alex propped it against the house with difficulty. She daintily tiptoed up the rickety wooden ladder, and when she got to the top and peered in the window, she was surprised to see Evan with another man. And they weren’t doing anything that just friends would do. In fact, Alex believed she was doing the exact same thing with Evan just last week.
Being so surprised by what she saw, Alex didn’t notice the gentle crack of wood under her feet, or when she had to readjust her feet when the step she was standing on snapped, but she did happen to notice when the ladder collapsed completely and she fell to the ground with a scream.
"Alex?" It was Evan, leaning out the window. Heart pumping, Alex jumped up, feeling pain in her ankle. It was sprained, but she limped home, as fast as she could, not wanting to speak to her so-called boyfriend.
Now
Alex sat up, finally getting a grip on her emotions. What did it matter if Evan was gay? She wasn’t about to let him steal any more of her life, so being the strongest woman she could be, Alex got out of bed, wiped her eyes and changed out of the dress she was going to wear on her date three days ago. She felt so much better at the thought of getting back into real life. Her stomach rumbled, and for the first time in three days, Alex realised how hungry she was.
She ran down the stairs and saw her family sitting at the table, eating the pasta her sister had offered her. It was all very familiar, and she was looking forward to getting back to it.
“Alex! How good to see you finally. Would you care to join us?” Her mother asked. She nodded and pounced into her seat at the table, shoveling in the pasta. Her hair was scraggly and she was looking thin, so her parents were glad to see her eating.
“Alex, I'm going out to a party tonight after we've finished here. Wanna come?” Fern asked her sister. Alex thought about it, and realised that the reason she got out of bed was because she was over it, so she agreed.
