“Larry—”
“Lord, what fools these mortals be, Kira! If they didn't want it to rain on the show, they shouldn't have scheduled it outside in spring.”
“Larry, maybe...”
I glanced past my smeared reflection. She was sitting on the edge of my bed, her hands folded silently in her lap and her back straight. I could see her sitting like that on the plane ride over here, just like she'd sat in our parents' old Cadillac on cross-country trips all those faded lifetimes ago. I couldn't help but smile at the thought.
“Maybe what?” I asked, turning my attention back to the stubborn makeup caking my face.
“Maybe there will be a rainbow.”
“Yeah, and maybe that'll—” When what she'd said finally hit me, my words fell dead on my tongue. I tried to swallow them, but they stuck in my throat.
A rainbow.
Slowly, I swiveled my chair around to face her. From my angle, I couldn't see her face for her hair. Even though it was cropped shorter than I had ever seen it before, it was horribly tangled, and the humidity had only served to make it even frizzier than usual.
Of course, I'd never tell her I thought it looked terrible, but she probably knew anyway. She always knew. I sometimes wondered if my thoughts were like frightened animals in the palm of her hand. She had a way with animals.
What the heck would a rainbow mean to her?
“Larry, if there is a rainbow, will you tell me?”
She turned her face towards me. There was a faint smile sprinkled around the edges of her lips, clinging to her cheekbones, coating her empty eyes. God, I'd forgotten how young—how infinitely younger than me—my twin was. When I flew away, I'd left her behind like a wounded insect, to let childhood turn to amber around her.
“Yeah.” I rolled my chair away from the desk a few feet and leaned back to look through the window. “Yeah, sure, but there isn't one.”
“Not yet,” she said, and turned her face away from me again.
I sat there for a moment, looking at her, before rolling back to the desk and inspecting my face in the mirror. It was a mess. Black and brown and green and specks of orange radiated from my eyes like a child's finger-paintings. The kind of paintings Kira used to make, just for the feeling of the colors between her fingers. (Is that what color was to her? Paste and water and slime, and the smell of soggy paper?)
“I'm gonna hop in the shower to try and get my Puck getup off.” She didn't show any sign of having heard me. “Uh, I'll be right back.”
The walls in the dorm building were notoriously thin, and when I turned the shower off, I could hear Kira singing all the way from the bathroom. Good thing the building's empty.
Kira's voice was just so... weak. She slipped and stumbled through melodies without picking her feet up in between the wobbly notes. Yet there was something about the tone of her voice—a certain clarity that made your heart flutter. Listening to her as I got dressed, flecks of other times leaked through my head; plastic silverware and summer hammocks and caustic, teasing words washed together like sidewalk chalk in the rain. And through them all wound her voice.
Something about her voice had made me never able to tell her to be quiet, no matter how much it aggravated me. Something that made me almost envious of her, with her delicate innocence and her incomprehensible simplicity. What a shame she never could have lessons.
I stopped halfway through putting on a sock.
There was once a time when futures buzzed in both of our ears like mosquitoes. When I went away for highschool, I brought mine with me, and I could feel them biting me with every audition, every curtain call. But Kira's—hers had stayed behind with her, and lay frozen around her in the amber.
As I left the bathroom, I could still hear her singing.
“...skies are blue,
and the dreams that you dare to dream
really do come true.”
Oh, good Lord.
“Hi, Kira. I'm back now.” As if she couldn't hear that I was coming when I was in the hallway. Her hands flipped and twirled, painting her voice onto the air.
“Hello, little Larry, fly
away above the rainbow...”
I pushed the window open, letting in the fresh, metallic footprint that the rain had left on the breeze.
“...why, oh, why can't I?”
I scanned the gray clouds. Scanned them again. Something tugged at the corners of my lips.
“Kira, did you hear that?”
“Hear what?”
“The rainbow.”
“There's a rainbow?”
“Of course!” I sat down next to her on the bed. “Can't you hear it? Red's the loudest, and its voice is melodic and warm—then there's orange, not quite as rough or energetic as red but with the same sort of operatic charm. Then yellow, the Soprano, the highest of them all—and maybe the sweetest. Yellow is harmonizing with green right now, making that perfect fifth—do you hear it?—green's that one that's soft, but bright, like a boy whose voice hasn't changed yet. And then there's blue, with a quick vibrato and that clear, low tone, and then—”
“And then violet.”
“And then violet.”
“Violet is my favorite,” she said with a small smile.
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