This is the second part of my prelude to MT. Enjoy.
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Kelly-
He wasn’t the same. But I could tolerate it. At least he was spending time with me again.
After the hell of sophomore year was done and gone with, I was starting to think my life wasn’t completely over. I’d been so close to Joshua, that when he’d started to ignore me, it felt like a knife through my back.
Saturday night was here in all its mid-weekend glory, my parents had gone to dinner, and we were watching Titanic. Joshua and I were all stretched out on the couch, curling up to each other with a buffet of cheetos and pretzels on the coffee table, just like it used to be. But he wasn’t how he used to be.
His form against mine was rigid and stiff, he hardly moved at all from the same position during the whole film. While I was burning to know what was bothering him, I didn’t ask. I didn’t want to ruin the night we were finally spending together.
The ship was sinking, little by little the thousands of tons of iron disappeared into the sea. The stern flashed across the screen, bearing the title, Titanic, Liverpool.
I could never get through this part without crying, without letting everything go and just sobbing. I never watched this movie with anyone but Joshua, he was the only one I chose to see me cry.
He sat up and I curled up to sit on his lap, turning myself from the screen. His arms wrapped around my back, but loosely, gingerly, like he was carrying something fragile. I pushed myself up and sat straight, staring into his eyes. I didn’t know what to make of them. So clouded and struggling they were.
Before I could open my lips to say anything, he shoved me away violently onto the couch. He began pacing in front of me, running his hands through his hair every few seconds, knotting it between his fingers before grunting and crossing the threshold once more.
Carefully I reached for the remote with a graceful hand and pressed the mute button. I sat up and didn’t even bother to wipe the smudged tears from my face.
“What’s wrong Joshua? God, whatever it is you can tell me. I love you.” I wrung my hands together nervously; he was really starting to scare me.
The light of a rescue boat flashed across the television screen, illuminating the room just enough so that I could see his face, but it wasn’t his. In that half a second time period when I looked upon him, I could tell that something was wrong, too wrong. In the next half second he was upon me, pinning me to the couch cushions with one hand while the other was desperately battling with the drawstring of my sweatpants.
I grabbed handfuls of his tee shirt in my fists trying to control him, but it did no good. My pants came off with one swift motion. Then it all hit me. Joshua was raping me. Raping. Me.
The thing that was declared from newsstands, and broadcasted from eleven o’clock shows with the serious faces of local reporters. The thing that had happened to my mother two days before she was killed. It was happening to me.
I struggled against him, pushing every muscle I had against his brawn. Fighting to curl myself away from him. But he was stronger, much stronger.
He had his fingers at the waistband of my underwear, a few more seconds and it would be all over. It wouldn’t end like this, it couldn’t. With every ounce of emotion I had I screamed his name into the shocked to silence air.
And he stopped. It felt like everything in the world stopped, except my trembling. My extreme fear, and hope that this was all a twisted nightmare materialized in the violent shaking of my entire body.
I stared up at his face, watching and waiting to see what he would do. Realization started to creep into his eyes, his thumbs resting at my hipbones trembled ever so slightly, but through it I could feel him completely crumble.
Another half second and I could feel the room’s air settle over my body once more. Joshua stood and grabbed his jacket from the coffee table, he wouldn’t look at me.
Another half-second and he was at the front door, pulling it open and then slamming it as he ran off, the warm September night greeting him with soft zephyr’s he didn’t deserve.
The quiet fell upon me now, as I pulled my knees to my chest, blanketing my stunned figure in thick waves of somber reflection.
The happy ending was upon the screen now, gorgeous sunlight pouring through the glass domed ceiling, as hundreds of Titanic victims finally got to witness the beautiful and heavenly moment of a reunited love.
I’d always loved this part, the dream ending for the people who had suffered long enough to deserve it a thousand times over.
But the only boy in the world who knew that, had just run off with every chance of me ever having one.
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