I'm standing here looking at you. I should know you so well. I should be able to glance at you and know everything about you. But I don't. I'm standing here looking at you, and all i see is a complete stranger. You don't look much different. The same sparkling green eyes as mine. The same dimple on the right side of your mouth. All the little things that we still have in common. The little things that don't matter at all. There was so much you needed to know. So much i never quite had the strength to say. The inevitable conversation hidden in the darkest corner of not just my mind, but yours too. I remember being told that loving some-one is giving them the power to break your heart, but trusting them not to. And i realize that i never did quite trust you to keep my heart safe.
Everything we could have had was always just around the next bend.Just over the next rainbow. Just one more step away. Just far enough for us to never reach, because neither of us had the courage to push that little bit harder. Reach that little bit further and grab it, before it out-ran us both.
And look where we are now. Close enough to touch, but the thousands of miles apart. And somehow after all these years of wanting it, I can't bring myself to step forward into your warm embrace. I can't bring myself to take the moment I've lived for, for all these years.
I remember all that time ago when you walked out of my life. When my first tear fell, you wiped it away and made me promise that you would never see me cry. Yet here I am. Tears streaming down my face. But this time, you don't wipe them away. You just watch the trail they leave on my cheek, with the strangest look on your face. As if those tears explain everything that you've never understood. Maybe they do.
I turn and walk away. I don't have to look back to know that you're doing the same. I'm letting you walk out of my life for the second time.
I got it all so wrong. We got it all so wrong. Because in the end...it was never worth the wait...
