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"Forever." I smiled. I couldn't help but to smile. I would do anything for this boy. This blue eyed, scrawny 14 year old boy, held my heart in the palm of his hand.
I remember the first time I saw him. I remember the way I had stopped, stared and forgot everything. Right when I saw him, I knew soul mates existed and mine was staring right at me.
I remember our first kiss. I remember the soft chewy gum that left a citrus taste on the rims of my teeth. I remember shoving the gum deep in my jaw as his tongue entered my lips. And that breath of new life I breathed. I felt love enter my lungs. Enter my life.
I remember our first fight, I cried afraid of the loss, blaming myself. I remember begging and pleading, telling him I would stop at nothing until he was mine. "Were meant to be Ronnie, please don't do this to me." Desperate. I remember the many fights and break ups after that. I remember how he took me for granted.
I remember our one year. I remember the distance that had grown between us. I remember trying to ignore it. I can still see him smiling, holding me. I can still feel him. One year.
I remember the first time he cheated. I remember how he had said the words "It was a mistake." Tears dripping and racing down my face. Again I took the blame. Again I took him back.
I remember the last time I ever saw Ronnie. The sun setting, both of us clutching unto each other standing in the middle of rocky red dirt road. Kissing him, feeling him. Being his. Forever.
I remember our 2 year. How I just knew that I got lucky, that THIS that HIM was why I was put on earth, why God put him here. To love me.
I remember the last time he broke up with me. Left me cold, I couldn't even breathe. I couldn't think. I remember the first time I cut, I remember letting the blood fall and gently spill all over his picture.
I knew that was the last of me and Ronnie.
That was over a year ago.
I see you, your falling for me. 8 months is a long time. And I know how it feels to be in love for the first time. I know the tingle in your lips and the anxiety your heart holds for me. I know you think this will last, I know I tell you it will. But, love lies....
just ask Ronnie.
