It was raining, big, fat, heavy rain drops catapulting like bullets at the dark window. I wished they would stop.
We were watching a movie, a dumb comedy that I wasn’t able to enjoy because my heart seemed to have lodged itself into my stomach.
I was on the clean, coral colored couch with Kevin, who’s arm was twisted around me. It felt heavy like a huge weight on my shoulders, made increasingly worse by Tristan’s stares.
Tristan was sitting next to Ethan on the couch opposite and rather then watching a movie, like everyone else, he was looking at me. I tried to ignore him and watch the movie too, but I could feel his eyes, and every time I looked my heart seemed to fall deeper and deeper.
He wasn’t staring at me in order to make me nervous, it was just a stare that said he was perfectly content with what happened that morning and now he thought he had the right to stare at me all he wanted, which I wish wasn’t true.
I caught his eye and he grinned at me making my heart flutter uncontrollably, which only made me feel nauseous. Instead of smiling back at him I turned to Kevin, “I have to go to the bathroom,” I said. He nodded, his eyes didn’t even leave the TV.
As I hurried out of the room I caught the concerned look on Tristan’s face.
Breathe, I told my self leaning against the pale walls of the hallway just outside the bathroom. It was too tight in there, I just needed air.
I felt like I was losing my mind, the guilt was driving me crazy. It was bad enough that I could sit there, curled up with Kevin, and have him completely oblivious, thinking I’m the perfect little faithful girlfriend. But then, Tristan had to sit there and stare as if he’d won something. He didn’t even care that I was sitting with Kevin because he knew he’d had more.
I opened the window and breathed in the fresh air, I felt like I was suffocating. The heavy rain drops splashed my face, rolling like fat tears down my chin.
“Is everything alright?” Tristan came into the hall sounding worried. I pulled my head out of the window, I must have looked as insane as I felt.
“I’m fine,” I told him stiffly, but even so I wiped the rain drops off my face.
“Are you sure,” He said, stepping forward and wrapping his long arms around me.
“I’m sure,” I started to say, while pressing my head against his warm chest but then I stopped myself. “No,” I looked up at his face, “It’s this.”
“What?”
“This,” I stepped back now and made a big sweeping gesture with my hand as if to indicate us.
He looked confused and I lowered my voice to a deep whisper, “The guilt is killing me. We shouldn’t have…” But I trailed off and averted my eyes to the still open window where the rain drops were hitting the floor.
“So… what do you wanna do about it?” His tone was bitter as if I’d offended him.
I buried my face into my hands and shook them wildly, “I don’t know!” I shrieked into them.
“Is everything alright?” Now Kevin entered the hallway, looking as concerned as Tristan had. Tristan gave me a panicky look while he stared at him.
“Everything’s fine,” Tristan said stiffly but Kevin ignored him and wrapped his arms around me.
“Babe, are you okay?”
No. No I wasn’t. I looked up at Tristan’s pleading face. Don’t tell, his eyes begged. “Mhm,” I muttered staring out the rain spattered window.
Yet, the guilt was building up, filling my stomach, consuming my heart, climbing up my throat. I made a choking sound as I held back the tears.
He held me at arms length, concern etched in the lines of his face, “are you sure?”
I nodded silently but the tears were already welled up in my eyes. I was blowing it. I looked at Tristan’s panicky face. Don’t tell, he begged, please don’t tell but I was blowing it.
“Do you know what the problem is?” Kevin turned to his best friend, who was staring intently at me with that begging look.
Tristan shook his head, avoiding Kevin’s eyes.
“Please,” Kevin begged us both.
How could I stand here and lie to him? He trusted me. He was so dumb to trust me. How could Tristan lie like that? He and Kevin had been best friend since before I even knew them. Long before. Here I was messing up their friendship. I sobbed again, making a strangling sound as I tried to stop it.
Tristan was still staring at me, he seemed to be focusing all his energy into that stare, begging me not to tell, to play it off as if nothing was wrong, as if nothing happened.
But I broke down.
“I’m so sorry,” I sobbed falling into Kevin’s arms. He caught me, steadied me and held me up again.
“Why are you sorry?” He sounded hesitant, as if he wasn’t sure he wanted to know.
“Please,” Tristan whispered so faintly it was hard to hear. By the look on his face he hadn’t meant to say it out loud. He was still pleading with his eyes but he’d given up and was leaning against the wall.
“Did… something happen… with you two?” Kevin took a deep breath, clearly afraid of the answer.
When I nodded, a slow mournful nod, he became angry. Clenching his arms tighter where they held me, “what?”
“This morning, I couldn’t sleep.” He nodded slowly, waiting for me to continue. Tristan was shrinking into the wall. “And I went down to the beach. And he came. And we kissed.” I didn’t mention that it wasn’t the first time.
“Is that all?” I shook my head. “More?” I nodded. He guessed, that was clear as emotion spread over his entire face.
“How… could… you!” His words, so filled with anger, were not directed at me even though I had flinched, ready for his attack. With each word he had taken a step closer to Tristan who was cowering to the wall. “You supposed to be my best friend,” Kevin spat, “she’s my girlfriend. How could you?” His voice was so heavy with accusations. Tristan didn’t say anything. He stared at me with the same accusations, how could you?
“Kevin, please.” I tried weakly to stop him. He should be yelling at me. I was to blame. But he didn’t stop. I grabbed his arm, he was trembling with anger.
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