Pre- face
The moon was high in the sky. The escapading wind was rough against my face and carried my hair into its grasp. We were going 150 mph down a barren highway. I felt the wheels hot against the road, the stereo so loud that everything in the car is vibrating, including us.
“Ready?” the voice of the driver bellows above the resilient radio and the huge pockets of wind funneling in from the windows.
“Ready” we answered in sync.
We quickly put on our gear, preparing for the jump that stretched before us. The speed of the car increased to 160 mph, the scenery racing by. The door was suddenly swung opened and the vigorous wind that poured in was almost too patent to surpass.
“Now!” the driver yelled.
I jumped out and plunged into open air. The wind fought against my weight. I closed my eyes, seeing nothing but obscurity before me. I flailed my arms and legs. Gravity kicked in and down I plummeted into the hard core Earth. The dirt that I rolled into littered my uniform, face and hair. Darkness and strange nature sounds enveloped me. A canopy of trees above me blocked me from seeing the sky. My chest felt heavy and I was breathing hard.
“Success! Natalie, are you alright?” came a deep voice beside me, his presence looming over me. I got up and dusted myself off.
“Yeah, I’m fine”
“Cool. Then let’s do this”
Part one ^_^
Ten Years
I’ve never really thought about the future of our life, or how I wanted it to turn out to be. I’ve never really worried much about anything. I’ve always been a shy, carefree girl that feels like over the years… I lose more and more of something…..
My name is Natalie Ferguson. I’ve just turned fifteen, ten years since the accident… it happened one foggy Monday morning. It was my first day of 1st grade. Dad’s job had been slow lately, so mom had to work extra hours at the office to fill in the gap. Mom was going to work a lot earlier. She was late this morning because her dad had an argument about going out into the heavy fog. Mom left anyway and about five miles later, she was twenty miles above the speed limit even though the path made her very vague. Then, she had a direct contact collision with another car. She spun out of control and was hit by another car that was going the opposite direction, which was what made this car crash so fatal. When policemen called dad and told him, I was too occupied with my bouncy ball to notice dad’s breakdown on the kitchen floor, or how dad hurriedly dropped me off at school that day with swollen puffy eyes, pounding the steering wheel, muttering “I told you so!” Life was just so happy for me at the moment, starting 1st grade. It’s funny how little kids are so joyous all time, too naïve to think about the destruction that can happen in life and how compared to it, not having chocolate ice cream after dinner isn’t a bad thing at all. Dad told me after school that day and for a full twenty minutes, I didn’t believe him and I was mad at him for even saying those words. He didn’t go to the funeral when the day came, I went with grandma that day. After that, dad always believed that mom is one of the illuminescent stars in the sky, looking down at us. So we both got interested in astronomy as a hobby. We built telescopes and study stars and constellations. Even now….
I tightened my backpack straps as I entered the double doors of Aspen High in Colorado. It was a Monday morning, the first day back to school since Spring break. I’ve lived in Colorado since two months after mom’s funeral when dad decided that we needed a change… a turn a new leaf in our lives. I’ve always felt displaced at Aspen, since I was established as a nerd my first week here since I was a wiz at science and now at the ending of my tenth grade year, I still carry on that title. I was not only a nerd at this school, but also an invisible transfigure. No one notices me, but I’ve learned to live with it since I didn’t really want to be noticed anyways, but supporting that statement isn’t easy when you have a friend like Katherine Griswald. Katherine is also a nerd, extremely good at mathematics and was the captain for the winning team for the mathematics decatholon competition last year, but the way she’s noticed, she’s not declassified as a nerd. Katherine has these big blue eyes and a babydoll face with a few freckles sprinkled across her nose that make her look extra innocent. She has wavy strawberry blonde curls that bounce against her shoulders when she walks and turns her head. She has a cheerleader’s body, complete with a winner’s smile. Boys notice her all the time and girls envy her since they cant call her a dumb blonde like they do with the other blondes at Aspen. I’ve always envied Kat as well, but not for the same reasons. Kat and I met our 9th grade year. She was as invisible as me then. She had bottle cap glasses, straight hair and a bumpy face. We’d been paired up for a science project and became instant friends. Then, summer break came, when she got her contacts and discovered a good face wash and good hair curlers. I feel like we have a forced friendship. Our nerdiness is the only thing we have in common. I mean, I don’t have a bumpy face and my vision is just fine, but I’m barely developed at all and my hair never cooperates with curlers. Plus, I don’t have a babydoll face or freckles or big blue eyes. I’ve always been just average. Not extra extravagant or extra nerdy, just your average nerd and at Aspen High School, average is never noticed.
“Good morning!” Kat said, popping up from behind me as I rearranged my messy locker. Kat always looked fresh in the morning somehow. She loved mornings and I so hated them.
“Good morning” I grunted back dully. Kat opened her locker, whom happened to be right next to mine and rummaged through it before reminding me that we had six minutes to get to first period. I groaned and followed her to Mr. Evan’s adv. English class. We took our regular seats and Kat automatically caught the attention of the guy next to her, Matt Brentwood, voted MVP on Aspen’s basketball team. I rolled my eyes as the bell rang and we were instructed to start on our bellwork, whom was a question about foreign cultures, obviously an opening point to Mr. Evan’s lecture for today. I looked back over at Kat and Matt, whom were scribbling notes to one another. They talked during class almost every day and Kat had even hung out with him and his friends once or twice and it didn’t disrupt the nerds/populars school status. After bellwork, my prediction proved correct. Mr. Evans started his daily lecture with the point of his assigned bell work. I became instantly focused on the active nature outside, trying not to notice Kat and Mr. MVP. My mind started to swarm. I’ve always told dad that I wanted to travel the world and experience different high schools in different countries and continents. Not just Aspen, but only because I wanted to find a place where I really fit in. I’ve never considered myself as emo or depressed (although some teachers do). I just feel that I haven’t yet found a place where I truly feel like me, and part of me says that ever since mom’s death, I’ve seen my life through a different perspective, that I can’t really fit in anywhere if I feel displaced, and even though I’ve given it much thought, I haven’t yet figured out the meaning to all of that yet. I’ve always daydreamed about being a princess in an elegant castle when I was little, but when I was little, I hadn’t realized that it wasn’t the fact of being a princess brought happiness, or living in an elegant castle, but the girl herself. I know, my thoughts tend to get pretty deep during English class. When I finally decided to pay attention to Mr. Evans again, he was closing up his lecture by talking about the cultures of India and how they like to keep cows sacred. Minutes before class ended, he passed out a prompt for a five page essay on the culture of our choice.
“It has to be foreign to you” he went on. “if you have to, you can stay afterschool and use my computer for research” and after the bell rang and we began to leave, he hollered “and you can’t use India ladies and gentlemen”
The lunch menu was sloppy Joe or pizza(blah). So I just skipped the lunch line, grabbed an orange juice and retreated to the regular table, where Katherine sat, talking to Alexa Foster, Matt’s step sister.
“Hi Natalie!”Kat said as I approached.
“Hi” I said back. Then Alexa looked at Kat with a grin.
“You’re so kind, Katherine! I didn’t know that you mentored new students! I thought that was Nadia’s job”
Kat looked at her with a bizarre look.
“What? She’s not a new student and I’m not a mentor. That’s Natalie Ferguson”
Alexa looked at me, rolling my name around on her tongue.
“Nope. Never heard of her” She said after contemplating my name. Why was I not surprised?
“She and I won the science fair last year”
Then, Alexa looked at me again and smiled. Then, whispering to Kat, she said
“Yeah…Total N-E-R-D. LOL”
I rolled my eyes at her as she walked away. Kat was eating a slice of school pizza. Something I often referred to as cardboard.
“No lunch today, huh?”
“I don’t know how you eat that stuff”
We ate in silence for a while, and then my curiousity broke the silence.
“So, what were you guys discussing?”
“Oh, she knows that her brother and I have been hanging out a lot and she wants to make sure that we don’t start off on the wrong foot, so she invited me to dinner at their place”
“Nice” I said, feeling completely jealous and left out. I’d realized by now that our friendship would never be the same again.
The dismissal bell rang as students filed out of classrooms into the once vacant hallways. I started walking down the sidewalk path to my house, which was about ten minutes away. The sun sat in the middle of a cloudless sky, beating down on my now perspiring forehead. I sighed. The sidewalk stretched far ahead of me and my walk seemed longer than usual. Kat and I walked home all the time. Her house was in the same neighborhood as mine, except she lived more to the back of it than I did. Suddenly, my cell phone rang.
“Hello?”
“Uh… hey, has school ended?” Shawn said from the other line.
Shawn Wendell is the son of one of my father’s best friends. He’s almost twenty and is a total neat freak. So dad hired him as our housekeeper two years ago when Shawn was profound in unemployment. He looks ater the house while im at school and dad’s at work at the office as a CEO for a toy company. I’ve never agreed with dad to trust Shawn with our house(or anything else), but no one listens to me. He also looks after me until dad comes home from work at about 7:00. And cooks most of the food(which I don’t eat most of the time).
“Yes. Schools ended”
“Then why aren’t you home yet?”
“Stuck in traffic? What do you think? I do have to walk”
“Do you want me to pick you up?”
“NO…I mean, this is all the exercise I get all day. I should have at least that to keep fit”
“Well, fine. Anyway, I’m working on a dessert for dinner. What do you think of yellow vanilla surprise? Doesn’t that sound yummy?”
“Uh…yeah, sure. Sounds like the best dessert in the world” I exclaimed with heavy sarcasm.
“It’s an old family recipe”
I was thinking that maybe the surprise was that it was deadly poison.
“So, hurry home, alright?” Shawn said, interrupting my thoughts of the possible ingredients for his surprise dessert.
“Uh… yeah. Whatever” I said, and then hung up before he could have the chance to say anything else. You must be wondering why I’m being so mean to a guy that’s being so nice to me and is only trying to help. Well, here’s five reasons why I don’t like Shawn. #5: He’s a little too friendly. I don’t trust anyone that’s that friendly. He could be a pervert for all I know. #4: Sometimes, it seems like he’s trying to take over my job of being daddy’s little girl. Hasn’t he realized that enough has been taken from me already? #3: He always tells lame jokes and thinks he’s so funny and sometimes, he acts as if he’s hiding something (I point back to #5). #2: His food isn’t that good. Last time I digested any of his food that had the word surprise in it, I had the worst stomach ache ever. And the #1 reason why I don’t like Shawn: he thinks that he can fill in the gap for anything I don’t have in my life right now. Like a mother and an older brother. If I was ever upset, he’d come a little(no, a lot) too close to push a strand of hair away from my face or wipe away a tear or to let his arm lay heavily across my shoulders.(I refer back to #5!#5!) and asks what’s wrong. I always manage to slip away from his reach and skimper away… Home was finally in view and I quickly headed towards it. Quickly opening the door with my key, I immediately smelled chilly, mixed with the faint aroma of cake and a cinnamon smell coming from a candle, and all of these aromas together isn’t such a very inviting smell. Shawn’s basically obsessed with candles and I come home to the smell of one almost ever yday. Mostly cinnamon, which usually gave me headaches. You can only take so many strong aromas.
“Shawn, I’m home” I announced, peeking in the kitchen. Shawn was stirring a pot of rice and turned to see me with a smile. He had on a ‘kiss the cook’ apron and once he’d seen that I saw it, his grin grew wider. How perverted is that?
“Good afternoon. Would you like to help me cook?”
I immediately shook my head, crossing the room to get a package of Oreos from the cupboard and a cold glass of milk from the fridge.
“Tons of homework. Sorry” I responded, then went up to my room without another word. I didn’t have much homework to do but why would I want to get anywhere near Shawn? As I entered my room, I was greeted by my Newtonian Reflector telescope, my chart of the 88 known constellations, an Hertzsprung-Russell diagram, a parallax chart and a book about types of telescopes. I remember when I was seven, and dad was trying to explain to me what the parallax of a star was and what the purpose of an H-R diagram was, Which stars were hottest and which ones had the most density. Now, dad and I weren’t as close. As a CEO, dad got a lot of money. A lot more than enough to support me, or even a few more children, but he was always busy. Always thinking about his job. Astronomy was the only way I got through to him. Then I was daddy’s little girl again. My cell phone rang.
“Hello?”
“Hey, it’s Kat”
“Hey, how’s Matt’s place?”
“Great, but Matt isn’t home yet. I’m hanging with Alexa. You should really get to know her. She’s so cool and has so much in common with us. She’s nice too”
I wanted to say ‘nice? Did you see the way she treated me in the cafeteria? No way she wants to be my friend. She barely knows that I exist’ but instead I said
“That’s great!.... maybe the three of us can hang sometime”
“Maybe….oh, I got to go. I think Matt is here. Bye Natalie!”
“Bye”
Dad came home at about 7:15, giving me one of his classic bear hugs. Only problem: he was on his cell phone. I rarely had him to myself without his cell phone. I remember when I was six and I was so mad that he was always on his phone, that I almost threw it into the lake. I’d taken it secretly and wailed when he saw me and got his phone away from me just in time. He wasn’t mad at all, since he’d immediately realized my reasonings. But anyway, Shawn left and dad took a bowl of dinner and went into the living room to watch television. I did the same, but never finished the food and dad never minded. Dad was a tall man, at 6’2. Built like a professional baseball player. Always in rich looking suits and always keeping his hair smelling like peaches. A smell that reminded me distinctly of mom, which I think is the only reason he’s always loved the same shampoo and conditioner.
“So, how was school?” dad asked as I watched ‘America’s Got Talent’. We were both big on reality shows, especially this one.
“Good, I guess”
“I know you were probably happy to see your friends again after such a long school break
I wanted to say ‘ no, not really. My only friend went galloping off with a few popular kids from school without asking me how I thought about it or thinking of inviting me!’ but I bit my tongue. A few seconds later, I tasted tiny hints of blood.
“Yah. Sure” I said. These time with dad were precious. I wouldn’t ruin it by talking about my little problems at school. He had enough to worry about already, being a CEO and all.
“Well, im a little tired dad. Im going to turn in” I said, getting up. When actually, I couldn’t stand the metally taste in my mouth any longer. I spit it out in the sink and washed it away. Then, opened my window and looked through my telescope. The sky was littered with stars tonight.
“Where are you mom? One of these stars is bound to be you” I said and then after a few seconds, changed into my nightgown and lay down to go to sleep, illuminescent light pouring into my room from the window. I hadn’t even touched Mr. Evan’s project yet.
