relationship abuse

this definately isn't going to be up to quo...I need help turning all of my thoughts into a real poem

It’s hard to talk about it
When I’m so busy being pissed off
And you want to talk about it all right now
Like it’s just so easily fixed that all you have to do is
Say you’re sorry and it’s over

It isn’t that easy

I need to know that it isn’t going to happen again
But I know that it is
That’s just how you are
It doesn’t end
Though you say you’re sorry
Next time you get mad at me
It’s like here we go again

And I know for a fact
That we can be best friends right now
And tomorrow you may be spreading shit about me
And there’s nothing I can do about it
All I can do is forgive you
Time and time and time and time again
Forgive you

But I’m so tired of it
Because I care for you so much
And I want us to be together
We’re like…destined
But if you’re going to tread me a slow street slut
Every time you think I’m wrong
And expect to apologize and make it all better
You’re going to have to go

Because as much as I care for you
As much as we have been together
As much as destiny pulls us closer and closer with each passing day
I need my self-esteem
And I don’t need you

This is your last chance
It has to be
But I’ve said that so many times before…

It was a bit unorganized, but it wasn't bad. The second to the last stanza was my favorite. The beginning was kind of boring though, because it was a pretty broad overview of things that happened. It's like you're trying to communicate too many things at once, so you don't go very in depth on anything.

"I need to know that it isn’t going to happen again
But I know that it is
That’s just how you are
It doesn’t end
Though you say you’re sorry
Next time you get mad at me
It’s like here we go again"

This was kind of confusing, because you're trying not to directly address anything. You could try explaining a bit more the situation.

"All I can do is forgive you
Time and time and time and time again
Forgive you "

I thought there were a bit too many times. Maybe you could just have 3 times, or even just 2?

So overall, it was alright, but it was pretty confusing because I don't know any part of your problem, yet you don't really hint on anything else besides a broad point.

I was just looking through random pages when i found this, and decided to comment on it. This poem was unorganzied, and bit weird, but not overall bad. I liked the message in it.