In an instant, everything could end
In just one moment, the tears could all stop falling
Just one little cut, just a little deeper than the others
That's all it would take, and I wouldn't have to hurt
I wouldn't have to cry, I wouldn't have to lie
Saying I'm happy when I'm really not
Saying everything's okay, when it really never is
Fearing tomorrow and what it might bring
Looking back on my past, and remembering the times
When I thought it was finally over
I thought I was going to be happy
But I wound up broken again
I felt like it was real, the love I finally found
Found out later on, that love I found was fake
Crying on the inside and the tears never cease to come
On the outside I may smile, but only just to hide my pain
I don't know how I live like this
How I handle all these emotions
I just lock them up inside, and I never let them out
Maybe I'll just keep on smiling
I'll just keep lying to the world
So they wont know that I am broke
So no one has anything to use against me
I'm confusing myself like I do everyone else
I'm afraid to let it all go
Afraid that I might break some more
I'm letting emotions control me
Letting my heart do all the thinking
Maybe I'm insecure? Or maybe I'm just not sure
Should I try to sleep this off? Or will I just lay in bed awake
Like I do every night anyways
I'm trying to find myself
Trying to find out who I am
The person I try to hide, is that really me?
Or am I really alone? I don't think that's possible
There has to be at least one person
One other teenage girl
Who feels the same way I do
But I'm sure there's more than one
I'm sure there's thousands more
Girls who are just like me
Who feel the same way I feel inside
Girls who hurt like I do, who want it all to end
Self confidence? I lack it
Self esteem? I lack that too
It slowly faded away, as I grew into a woman
No one should have to feel this way
No one should have to hurt
This world, it's not perfect
It's superficial and it's low
Dependant on unrealistic goals
Unrealistic dreams that will never come true
If they do, they'll turn out to be a nightmare
And if they don't, then you're fortunate
To have found something right for you
Wounds and scars that just wont heal
That's what I try to hide
Distracted by things that don't make me think about
Everything I've ever been through
Every time I was abused, every time someone had used me
Taken my love for granted, taken all I had
And left me alone out in the cold
Understand me now? Try a little bit harder
This isn't an easy life, it never has been, it never will be
But at least I'm trying hard, to make a difference
To make a change
That's good enough for me
Is it good enough for you?
