'my heart has sunk a million times'
coauthored with: @Quillfeather The Monsters I Keep in My Mirror
i saw you in a refraction a light
i chased into the cold blue
illusions of who you claimed to be
my only source of light in this darkness
had i known you were a reflection
i may still have chased after you
i am entranced by the promise of your hateful love
you draw me in like a foolish moth to the flame
but only fools are truly free in this ocean
and the water burns my lungs yet i swim on
stuck in the endless loop of chasing something worth feeling
drowning in the depths of my total emptiness
this sand in my palms feels like rock bottom
and the light doesn't cast so far anymore fading
just as who i am has faded completely
the versions of myself i tore apart for you
i hear their whispers through the water
they call me icarus but i call myself alone
my childhood screams for me to remember why i am here
why i stray so close to the sun in this lonely sky
why when i've fallen i drift finding my way
to the boiling vents in the sea floor to find a new sun
i embrace the darkness like an old friend
tired of looking for the light in this sea of sorrow
only to be reborn and given fresh wings
made anew in this plight for freedom
i realize i'm chasing hope
23/04/2025
Spoiler
@Liminality thank you so much yes im trying to explore all the aspects of the myth!!
