melancholia induced by my lack of self

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Sun Mar 03, 2024 1:29 am

herb says... · Sun Mar 03, 2024 1:29 am

>30 poems
>get all the badges

1. extended warranty on life
1.5 fertile land
2. ...kakorrhaphiophobia
2.5 ...chronophobia
2.75 ...oneirophobia
2.i pink ribbon
3. untitlednil//lost files
3.ii social chameleon
4. acceptable
4.iii letter to self(p.s the ending isn't as it seems
4.!? sizzle/crackle/bang/shhh
5. amidst my circus
6. what's the world without you
6.@ i am my own doppelganger (my anatomical heart beats slow)
7. i read between the lines
8. hotline
8.iv something vain & something beautiful
9. i blame babel (what happens when we die?)
9.v sonnet 1
9.vi yearning for something
9.?!? jumbled up words
9.vii newspaper nebulas
10. lovesickness (yearning for what's not yours)
10.viii i do not wish to be ganymede
10.ix i made my sacrifice loving you (i am orpheus, you are eurydice, and i looked back.)
10.◇ b&b does not just mean bed and breakfast
10.!!! mundane everyday routine i never get bored of
11. certificate of adoption (signed 20XX)
12. i want to be a capybara
13. scared of something
13.25 confessions
14. tonight, under moonlit lightbulbs
15. i've been writing the same thing over and over
15.5 collage of my <3
16. humans are inhumane
17. imitation is the sincerest form of flattery (1)
17.5 color by number (paint pallet)
18. awibi biwita (digital life)
18.25 egocentric (underwater volcano)
18.5 nothing at all
18.75 i didn't get the memo.
19. nadie es para siempre.
20. i think i'm in love
21. (p)a(gre)ssive
22. twenty-two (it feels like the perfect night)
22.x the parrot only knows its favorite words (2)
22.10151103 my stomach hurts
23. all eyes on me.
24. stormy skies
25. alias
26. ravens
26.5 something i should have said (apprehnesion)
27. thaw
28. spare change
28.xi i think that i am a house and they are a skyscraper
29. hi, ku
30. melancholia induced by my lack of self
30.xii finale

hello all, to herb's napo.
planning on 30 and also...
there's a secret poem

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Mon Mar 04, 2024 7:12 am

Spearmint says... · Mon Mar 04, 2024 7:12 am

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HERB POETRY

also :eyes: secret poem... oooh...
looking forward to following along with your thread this napo!! and poeting in pads together...? :3

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Mon Mar 04, 2024 12:19 pm

herb says... · Mon Mar 04, 2024 12:19 pm

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i have a feeling 3c will be used a lot more

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Mon Mar 04, 2024 7:13 pm

Ventomology says... · Mon Mar 04, 2024 7:13 pm

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O_O secret poem oooooh

"I've got dreams like you--no really!--just much less, touchy-feeley.
They mainly happen somewhere warm and sunny
on an island that I own, tanned and rested and alone
surrounded by enormous piles of money." -Flynn Rider, Tangled

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Mon Mar 04, 2024 8:16 pm

Youbeaucupid says... · Mon Mar 04, 2024 8:16 pm

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Poetry from the Herb?! I can't wait!!

You know, ଳjellyfishଳ can't swim or shine on their own, but once they absorb light from around them, they're able to shine for themselves! So maybe...I can, too! If I'm around you, maybe I'll be able to shine, too? -

クラゲは夜は泳げない

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Sun Mar 31, 2024 7:39 pm

herb says... · Sun Mar 31, 2024 7:39 pm

prenapo poem

destructive habit
mentions of drugs but it's just asprin

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deleted messages on my phone
the light covering my face in the night
scribbling out everything i hate about myself
to be fair that's all of me.
red pen is my best friend when it comes to crosses and cuts
(if i scar myself it's brought upon myself
i am my own worst critic after all)

if i break my phone will i feel beautiful
(i am hyperfixated on the way i look
like some kind of narcissisist.)

ripped up envelopes scattered across my floor
wasted paper and wasted time
(i adressed them to everything that hurt me-
so, all of them were adressed to me.)
ink spilled over my desk
the quill i used no longer serves me
(if i were to have an address it would be on self-loathing lane)

if i shatter destiny will my legacy be studied
(i am scared of being forgotten
but more so of being remembered)

empty pill bottles stacked neatly in medicine cabinets
ripped off labels leaving residue
next to the water glass used every day
(killing this pain of walking is my only euphoria)
pills go down my throat as if they're food
i've gotten used to this routine
(but in all fairness, i've never had another.)

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Mon Apr 01, 2024 4:07 am

herb says... · Mon Apr 01, 2024 4:07 am

1. extended warranty on life

i have prolonged my living process
(junkmail of a voice box,
my adam's apple is voicemail.)
respond after this tone:
(my screams fill the silence)
please return this call some day
eventually you'll know that this landline is filled with dust
(i'm no new model when society is ever-changing)
if i am to be renewed will it be free?
will i be free?
(my reincarnate will be broken because of my actions
i mean just look at me)
i cut my wire a long time ago
i'm just another flatline
(my heart flickered out a long time ago)

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Mon Apr 01, 2024 1:33 pm

herb says... · Mon Apr 01, 2024 1:33 pm

1.5 fertile land
in dirt i find home
(darkened area of pure quiet)
in dirt i find peace
(moistened area of impure minds)
i give unto you my utmost solace
(if i am dirt as well have i decomposed?)
i give unto you my deepest remorse
sorry for all the mess i've caused by being alive
(my biggest curse is being alive anyway
because in my life i have decomposed not only myself but the world)

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Tue Apr 02, 2024 3:50 pm

LuminescentAnt says... · Tue Apr 02, 2024 3:50 pm

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Two poems already! Great job herb! I like how you incorporated vegetables into that one and also have a deep meaning.

Good is not a thing you are. It's a thing you do.

- Ms. Marvel

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Tue Apr 02, 2024 7:54 pm

herb says... · Tue Apr 02, 2024 7:54 pm

2: ...kakorrhaphiophobia
fear of failure

if i break my past
and bottle my tears
will my future blossom or wilt
if i falter will my voice die out
will everyone look up at me
and point and shout
(their screams deafening me
i wonder when this hell will stop)

somehow i'm scared of everything i do
(yet i regret everything i haven't done
promise of the future breaks my present)
if i do not act i've failed to plan
if i end up acting i've planned to fail
(either way my heart is torn
and then i'm filled with...

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Tue Apr 02, 2024 7:55 pm

herb says... · Tue Apr 02, 2024 7:55 pm

2.5: ...chronophobia
fear of the passage of time

jumping on each opportunity with hope
(but if i go in fast forward
will the world walk past me in slo-mo?)
film reel of my mind wound up and tattered
(tattered, not torn.
i've died internally much longer than i've lived externally)
and i'm scared that when time leaves me
when i die will i be forgotten in the ebb and flow of time?
when i die will my actions be lost in the tide of the earth?

these questions keep me up at night
but over time i've lost my will to sleep
nightmares will overcome my reality
(if i interrupt REM sleep i'll end up with...

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Tue Apr 02, 2024 7:55 pm

herb says... · Tue Apr 02, 2024 7:55 pm

2.75: ...oneirophobia
fear of dreaming

my darkest nights i've broken my cycle
(though my eyes are like butterflies
they will never flutter shut)
the horrors of reorganizing my mind is like a jigsaw puzzle
(but i am so scatterbrained that it's more like a roll of the dice)

chasing nightmares that i wish i had
fleeing dreams that brought back the dead
i wish i left the past in the past
because if i ever make one simple mistake
my whole world will break
and i'll have...

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loop back to kakorrhaphiophobia!

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Tue Apr 02, 2024 8:52 pm

herb says... · Tue Apr 02, 2024 8:52 pm

2.i: pink ribbon

i remember going up there
the trees passed me by
every single thing reminded me of you
(the dirt paths,
the card games,
the lake house.)
you know, i cried when i last saw you
knowing that it would be the last
(that pink ribbon meant so much,
and i wondered if god had cursed you)
your laughter echoes through every room
your face in every picture frame
(to know you are gone
leaves my heart
.................................................................
...........broken...........................................
.........and...by............................................
tattered......your.....__________________
....................flatline....................................
(when the beeping stops,
what am i supposed to remember you by?)
dedicated to my aunt t. who lives on in my memory

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Wed Apr 03, 2024 2:40 am

herb says... · Wed Apr 03, 2024 2:40 am

2.☆ wildfire (blaze and burn)

kindling fires in my heart using the promise of love
you said it was necessary
i needed to have this fire lit
(if that was the case,
then are my heartstrings a joke to you?)
the embers of my tears cascade from what i call my eyes
they only fuel my anger
(hate and harm are 2 letters off,
yet they mean the same exact thing to you.)
the wildfire of our love left the pure forest of my heart scorched
(even if i replant,
this scar will last forever.)

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Wed Apr 03, 2024 3:46 am

Spearmint says... · Wed Apr 03, 2024 3:46 am

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HERB. AHHHHHHHH!! i can't express how much i love your poems through words so i hope imagining my scream of delight is enough xD okay okay:

first off, the imagery!! super relevant descriptions in each of your poems :] also all the sayings and references and the twists on them-- you know they're my fav =P

and then the way your phobia poems loop back to each other is also super cool like whaaaat i have never seen that done before but it is epic :0

and the words leading to the flatline in "pink ribbon" !!!!!!!!

the heart and emotion in your poems + the way you convey it through metaphors and specific phrasing is amazing. i cannot wait to read more herb poetry soon!!

mint, she/her

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