I clutched tightly to the mail armor as I stared at the red haired girl in the mirror, her swollen abdomen all too obvious beneath the filthy tunic. How I had managed to keep this a secret as long as I had amazed me. The bulky mail armor and leather belts did most of the work.
“Thea!” I panicked as Fendrel burst into my tent. “ The Princess has summoned you for battle, the Turks are on the move!”
“What! Now?”
“Are you ok?” he asked, surprised by my shock. “You look awful.”
I attempted to calm myself. “Of course. I’ll be right there.”
“I’ll let her Majesty know then.” Fendrel didn’t look convinced but left anyways.
My heart raced as I slipped into the mail, feeling its extreme weight settle around me like a suffocating monster. I couldn’t abandon my army, we’d been training for this battle for moons and I was their leader. I stared into my own reflection and found fear there. What was wrong with me? I wasn’t afraid of anything. But this was unfamiliar territory, I was pregnant and no one knew about it. I had been too afraid to mention it to anyone and now the battle had arrived, it was far too late to leave now.
The camp was writhing with filthy men and women, their stench and noise as suffocating as the armor that clung to me. I ignored the shouts and gestures as I forced my way through the molding tents, my mind in a different place all together.
I was almost to the Princess’s tent when I saw him and my heart seemed to freeze. His brown gaze lingered on me for a second before a heart-wrenching smile crossed his face. His high cheekbones, narrow face, curly brown hair; it was enough to soften even the toughest heart. I felt the heat rise in my cheeks and reminded myself to breathe.
“Thea,” his deep voice washed over me and I trembled, “I need to speak with you… it’s urgent.”
Panic filled me. Did he know?
“W-we’re minutes away from battle, I don’t have time,” I stuttered, feeling the blush return full force to my face.
“What do we have here? A timid mouse? And here I thought you were as unmoving as old Alys.” He laughed and I found purchase on reality. I smirked, Alys was one of the war elephants.
“I apologize. You caught me off guard, Terrin. If we survive this battle… we’ll talk then,” I added calmly.
“Of course." He neared me and for the briefest of seconds his lips brushed my forehead before he turned and disappeared into the throng of knights.
I suddenly felt nauseous and hoped I wouldn’t vomit in the Princess’s presence.
“Thea!” Princess Ysmay’s musical voice sounded as I entered the large tent, leaving the filth and brashness of war behind me. Though there was no doubt Ysmay was a warrior there was also no doubt she was a woman. She was beautifully kept, her long black hair shining around her pale face and dark eyes.
“Your horse awaits you out back. Are you ready to lead this army to victory?” she asked quietly.
I didn’t respond as I waited for the nausea to dissipate. Concern flashed across Ysmay’s face.
“Thea, are you well?”
I nodded; I had broken the oath I’d sworn when I had become a Knight and I wasn’t about to admit it now. If I didn’t die a warrior’s death today, I would disappear after the battle.
“Fendrel can take-“
“No!” I interjected, my pride taking over.
I left immediately, grateful to find that most of the army had already gathered and were waiting anxiously. After a few clumsy attempts, I managed to mount the horse, unsheathing the broadsword at my side
I thrust the sword to the sky, my war cry sounding loud and clear, echoed by the knights surrounding me. The thrill of battle filled me as the horses lunged forward and for a brief moment I forgot how serious my predicament was. The Turk’s lay in wait over the next rise and the numbers were not in our favor. In the moment; death wasn’t my worst option.
Bloodlust overcame me as the horses’ hooves pounded the soft dirt beneath us and I shivered in anticipation. Not for the first time I wondered what was wrong with me. Shouldn’t I be more concerned about preserving the life that lay growing inside me? But right then I didn’t care.
As we neared the huge hill that would give us our advantage I gawlked in astonishment as horses came stampeding down us from the crest, some sliding from the steep incline. No! This wasn’t supposed to happen like this, how could they have known? And then I saw the archers.
I raised my shield, but I was too late. Arrows flew past us and I heard the screams of my knights surround me, only seconds later realizing that one of those screams was my own. I gasped as pain pierced my body and I screamed again, my vision faltering. The Knights around me were shouting in concern as they reined in their mounts, fear causing them to falter. But then a voice rose above the din of chaos, commanding the Knights to continue their charge. Fendrel raced past as my army rode on without me and my horse slowed while I struggled to remain mounted. How dare they! Anger rose in my pain-drowned mind as I urged my horse to continue after them. I would be fine.
I felt a body press against my own and my horse began to run again. No. It was the wrong direction, I couldn’t abandon my army! I struggled to correct the charging animal’s course as my hands shook.
“Let it go, Thea,” Terrin’s soft voice enveloped me, calming the sea of panic drowning me. His strong arms steadied my body as I bit back another scream.
“There will be other battles to fight. Today you must fight your own battle. And, Thea,” his angelic voice broke, shattering my heart, “promise me you’ll win this battle; for the three of us.”
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