Will I be good enough ?

Wiil I be good enough ? I wonder every day.
Could my life be perfect, as I wish it could?
Would I get up one day, and hear myself say,
" Wow, what an beautiful day!"
If my life were with out scandal, it would be
a sham. My family hides a secret, if exposed
would ruin us. The pressure is on me to be perfect.
to be a good little girl. Well, it's hard to be good
in a messed up world.

Just a quick question... Are you a firstborn child? 'Cause I am, and sometimes that's the kind of emotion I feel. Neat little poem, however I think that some of the lines would be better running fully across rather than going onto the next line partway through a sentence as this slows the flow.

No. I am the youngest of six.