A lot of people think that depression is the same thing as sadness-that it's something one can just "snap out of."
Lies.
Depression is caused by an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. Basically, different brain chemicals that transmit messages control our emotions. When a message is disrupted, or there is a "weak signal," that causes depression.
(By the way, all this information can be found here.)
Symptoms include constant sadness, no energy, irritability, restlessness, and guilt.
So, that's the basic information. Having felt this for about six years now it's hard to keep it from overshadowing my life. There are days when everything (and everything can be as big as taking three exams, or as little as making toast) seems too overwhelming. On those days, I can't do anything. I've cried for hours for reasons as little as getting a B on an assignment or the internet is too slow. Everything is a struggle, it's like I'm driving in the rain and veering and veering and going to crash.
I've started taking medication as of two weeks ago, but it's too early for it to take effect. And I found a therapist that I really like but it's insanely difficult to open up to her. I think it will be worth it, though.
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I struggled through depression. My hormones were off and so one day I'd be terribly upset and the next I'd just want to kill myself and I'd start crying over things like the teacher telling me I did bad on an exam or something. It's almost like it's controllable but not, you know? Like, sure we could have controlled our crying but at the time it felt like it was the right thing to do.
I guess your main focus would be how this all came about, like when was the first time you experienced this or when was the first time period this started. I found mine to be when my mother almost died and I was blaming myself. (I know that sounds childish but if you truly looked at the facts it's quite possible) So, I attacked things that went at that like I would tell myself other possible ways her accident could have taken place.
But after a while, it seemed that I was becoming depressed over many things not related to her accident. I'm not quite sure how to really help you except talking. Sometimes, advice giving can be more annoying than people actually listening to you, having someone let you vent to them (for me it is).
I'm here to listen, though. Whenever(:
It's great that you've found a therapist! It is hard opening up, I am one of those people who keep to themselves all the time and hide my emotions so that I can place others before myself. -
I haven't been diagnosed as 'depressed' in anytime recent, but I show signs of it. And as if having severe Tourette's could help... *shakes head* I deal with a lot of anxiety and some intrusive thoughts in addition to social difficulty due to having Asperger's syndrome, a type of Autism spectrum disorder. I also may seem to be very abrupt with people in person due to having something called sensory issues. Noises are the triggers in my case. And they drive me nuts, well, that's an understatement. I'm about to post on the subject of sensory issues.
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Like, sure we could have controlled our crying but at the time it felt like it was the right thing to do.
Exactly. When I think about it after, it's like, how stupid was I? To think crying about it would fix anything. But then when it is happening, it's just...logical, somehow.I found mine to be when my mother almost died and I was blaming myself. (I know that sounds childish but if you truly looked at the facts it's quite possible)
I think I could understand that-I haven't been through something like that, but I can understand it. I tend to blame myself a lot. For me, the first time I can remember being very depressed was in fifth grade, when my mother moved across the country.I'm not quite sure how to really help you except talking.
Talking is the most helpful thing. Also the hardest, though, for me.And as if having severe Tourette's could help... *shakes head*
Ooh. Well, of course it wouldn't help...do you know if having Tourette's makes you more susceptible to depression? I don't actually know if they're related. Of course, a million things can lead to depression, but I was just wondering.I'm about to post on the subject of sensory issues.
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I struggeled with depression for a while a few years ago. In combination with my SA, it made everything so much harder. My grades were down in the tens and twenties and I got to the point where I seriously didn't care anymore. My concentration was off. One of the few times I did my homework, the teacher called me up to talk to me about it. She could tell I was going through a hard time and as gently as possible, told me I'd done it wrong. I started crying. The tears didn't last long and only a few people saw but I know I probably pounded myself over it when I got home. I remember just sitting in my room and crying for hours. The littleist negative comment from my parents caused me to yell and go up to cry. My hobbies I no longer had intrest in and the few friends that I had were pushed away. I had little to no energy and often felt like I was in a big, black hole that I couldn't get out of. That one teacher noticed. She e-mailed my Mom and one of the school conselors. I refused to talk to the conselor and after telling me to write in a journal, I wasn't called down to see her again. My Mom sent me to a psychiatrist once during that time, who my therapist now wants to talk to even though two years have passed.
I'm one of the lucky ones, though; I was able to push myself out of it and I was able to do it by myself.
Good luck in therapy, Mars. I know it's hard but it eventually does get easier, I think. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here.
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I don't know if I have depression but the truth is that I've dealt with radical mood swings ever since I was eleven and I am very, very touchy with topics people might find the simplest thing in the world. I once got to the point of attempting suicide. The worst is that I'm very good at hiding it and I don't have the will to tell my parents I've been dealing with this issue on my own for so long now because I'm afraid they might be mad or disappointed of me. It sucks when your only comfort is the silence of your room when your crying your eyes out for no good reason. Then again, I've grown with the idea I'm just being exaggerated and emotional. That's what everyone tells me, anyways.
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