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Liza saw Rowan sitting somewhere ahead on the banks of the stream. It cut through the forest, quick and loud and colored with fragments of stained glass leaves shed by the glass trees. She’d been following it since she fell from the Smiths’ front porch, because it seemed like the thing to do. She didn’t much want to run into Rowan right now—she didn’t want to run into anyone, she hardly knew what she was feeling, everything was a jumble of cascading fear and despair and anger—but it was easier to keep following the stream than to turn aside. She tried to swallow the tide of emotion as she neared the ringmaster, but she couldn’t.
“That was a monumental disaster,” she spat. “Anyone else you want to introduce me to?”
Rowan looked up at her in confusion, and that’s when she realized it wasn’t Rowan. It was a woman who looked incredibly like Rowan—nearly a clone—but she had a birth mark on her lip and a monocle in her right eye, and her clothes, otherwise identical to Rowan’s, were royal blue instead of violet.
Liza stopped several yards away from her.
“I’m—I’m so sorry,” she said, confused. “I thought you were—”
The woman gave a smile that looked like Rowan’s but was much quieter. “An easy mistake to make. We are identical twins.”
Liza must have looked as confused as she felt, because the woman added, “Rowan? I presume that’s who you thought I was.”
She returned her gaze to the river. She had a fishing pole in her hands and a young boy at her side. He had flaxen hair and looked not unlike the little girl in the Smiths’ house. Embarrassed and not sure what else to say—was there no end to surprise relatives? She hadn’t even known Rowan had had a sister—Liza sat beside her and nodded at the boy.
“His name isn’t Tommy, is it?”
The boy rested his chin on his knees. The woman looked at him and patted his shoulder. “It is, in fact. D’you know his folks?”
“I don’t know anyone.”
“Shame.” The woman pulled in her fishing line and rebaited the hook. She cast it back into the water, and then held a hand out to Liza. “No time like the present. The name’s Finn.”
“Liza.”
The boy sniffed. Finn and Liza looked at him, but he wiped his nose on his sleeve and looked out over the glittering water. Liza waited, expecting Finn to say something, but Rowan’s twin sat in comfortable silence as though unaware of how miserable her two companions were. Finally Liza couldn’t stand it any longer.
“Aren’t you going to ask?”
“Ask what, my dear?”
“Ask—” Liza fished for words. “Ask—if you were Rowan, and I came upon you thinking you were you, and I said what I said, she’d want to know what was wrong and why and who and how.”
Finn chuckled to herself. “I’m not Rowan. Oh! Look out, chums, it’s a big’un!”
The fishing line had gone taut. She wrestled with it for a moment—Tommy, at her side, raised his head, looking mildly interested—the line spun out as the fish, a big one it must’ve been, thrashed and tried to swim off down the stream.
“Grab’er, my boy!” Finn cried. Tommy’s pale, grubby hands joined her immaculate brown ones on the pole. Together they reeled the fish in. It flashed in the sunlight, something like a rainbow trout with a lot more rainbow. Its scales glittered and glowed like jewels, sapphire, coral, mauve, emerald, with a pearly sheen so white it left imprints on Liza’s lids when she closed her eyes.
“Well done, Tommy, well done,” Finn said as the fish wriggled feebly on the store. “That’ll make a fine dinner for us, won’t it?”
She lifted a wicker basket out of the stream from beside her feet and slipped the fish inside. The basket was half full already, with gasping, wriggling fish, smaller than the latest one but no less colorful.
“Now, my boy, after dinner you’ll have to go back, you know.”
The mild excitement drained from the boy’s eyes. He nodded and put his chin back on his knees.
“They’re looking for him,” Liza said. She meant to say who “they” were, but the words “my in-laws” stuck in her throat. “The Smiths,” maybe, but to her that was her and Duncan. She still couldn’t take it in.
Finn seemed to know who she meant. “I’m sure they are. He’s already run off twice since last night, he’s told me. Never fear. I’ll make sure he gets back to them safe and sound. Sometimes a body just needs to get away.”
Liza could’ve put her chin on her own knees at that. She knew.
“Have you ever done?” Finn asked, indicating the fishing rod. Liza shook her head. “Like to learn?”
Liza took the rod and held the line still as Finn baited the hook. The fishing pole was like none she’d ever seen, with a glass rod and a line that seemed to be made from strong, thin strands of glass all woven together. Liza couldn’t imagine how it didn’t break apart in Finn’s hands, but she’d seen far more unbelievable things already.
“There, now, just cast it out into the water and wait for a bite! Might have to move up the bank a bit. I’ve been here all morning.”
But Liza had a bite within a few minutes.
“Pee-hoo!” Finn leapt to her feet, delighted, as Liza grappled with the fish. “Another big’un! My, my. Steady now, easy does it—”
An obsidian fish finally flew from the water and flipped about on the turquoise grass. In the background, Finn was saying something about grabbing it around the gills and removing the hook, but Liza barely heard her. The fish was like none she’d ever seen—as long as her forearm, black as a starless night, glimmering in the sun. Somehow it was even more beautiful than the trout with its rainbow scales.
Tommy had scrambled to his feet and came over to examine her prize. He was taller than she’d expected, beanpole skinny—not unlike Christian, she thought, if Christian were blond and a ten-year-old boy.
“’S’a pearler,” the boy said softly. He tugged at a fingernail with his teeth.
Liza was sure she’d misheard. “A what?”
“A pearler. That’un’s a pearler.”
She still didn’t understand, but Finn came to her rescue. “Black pearlfish, my dear. Tommy’s parents are pearl-fishers, among other things. It works quite differently back in Scotland, I gather, but here they catch pearlfish and harvest the pearls to sell to jewelers or at market.”
“Like this,” Tommy said. He crouched down, stuck his first two fingers in the fish’s gasping mouth, rooted around for a moment, and then pulled out a gleaming freshwater pearl. He wiped it carefully on his shirt and handed it to Liza. “Here y’go.”
It was smoky grey and pear-shaped.
“Oh, no,” Liza said. “You keep it.”
The boy pinkened slightly, shrugged, and stuck the pearl in the pocket of his trousers. Then he returned to his place and his prior position on the bank. The turquoise grass had flattened into the shape of his backside. Finn shook her head.
“What’s wrong with him?” Liza asked softly.
Finn picked up the pearlfish and removed the hook from its lip. “His folks never made it back from the park.”
Like Duncan. Liza went shivery and cold. “Are you sure?”
“The last he saw of them, his father had gathered the little ones and told him to bring them on through. Then he ran off to find the mother, and no one’s seen hide or hair of either one since.”
No wonder the poor children were staying with Duncan’s family. Liza gazed at the blond head, all she could see of Tommy with his face turned toward the stream. She wished she could tell him it would be all right: she knew what it meant to be the oldest, to have to care for a sibling when your parents couldn’t, the crushing weight of premature responsibility. Eventually you grew up and hoped your sister would appreciate it one day.
She’d hardly thought of Melanie since the first day Duncan hadn’t come home. Had her sister realized she was missing? Had she tried to call, in a tizzy about her daughter’s wedding plans? Would she even miss Liza if she did?
The pearlfish was safely in the basket with the others, back underwater. Finn resumed her seat and held the fishing pole out to Liza, who barely felt it in her numb fingers.
Finn glanced at her. “Someone you know?”
Liza didn’t have to ask what she meant.
“My husband,” she said, and in the same way she had with Rowan, she started telling Finn everything. Well, not quite everything. Not all the loneliness or the things that didn’t seem to matter here because they were too far away—her sister, her parents. But she told Finn all about Duncan, his disappearance, how close she’d been to finding him only to have hope of reunion snatched away, replaced with the fear that he may well be dead now.
“And now,” she said at last. She hadn’t started crying this time, at least, but her voice was hoarse. “Now—there’s a family. Sisters, brothers, cousins. Nieces and nephews. Not to mention the parents, and Isadora is—”
“Not kindly,” Finn said.
Understatement, Liza thought. “And I just—I didn’t even know—he’s lied to me, Finn, we’ve been married more than thirty years and he’s been lying to me the whole time. I don’t even know how I’d feel if I saw him now.”
That was it, she thought, that was the problem, the thing that had taken her out of the Smith-Pratts’ house, out of the fair folks’ camp, wandering dazedly along the stream. Because she didn’t know how to feel. Because Duncan was her husband, her partner, and because he was missing, injured, possibly dead, but he was also a liar.
“I don’t know.” She sighed and sat like Tommy, with her chin on her knees. “Maybe I don’t want to find him.”
Finn slipped the fishing pole out of Liza’s fingers; it had been dangling, useless, from her fingertips and was in danger of falling into the stream. “You’re only looking for him out of habit, is that it?”
“That was a monumental disaster,” she spat. “Anyone else you want to introduce me to?”
Rowan looked up at her in confusion, and that’s when she realized it wasn’t Rowan. It was a woman who looked incredibly like Rowan—nearly a clone—but she had a birth mark on her lip and a monocle in her right eye, and her clothes, otherwise identical to Rowan’s, were royal blue instead of violet.
Liza stopped several yards away from her.
“I’m—I’m so sorry,” she said, confused. “I thought you were—”
The woman gave a smile that looked like Rowan’s but was much quieter. “An easy mistake to make. We are identical twins.”
Liza must have looked as confused as she felt, because the woman added, “Rowan? I presume that’s who you thought I was.”
She returned her gaze to the river. She had a fishing pole in her hands and a young boy at her side. He had flaxen hair and looked not unlike the little girl in the Smiths’ house. Embarrassed and not sure what else to say—was there no end to surprise relatives? She hadn’t even known Rowan had had a sister—Liza sat beside her and nodded at the boy.
“His name isn’t Tommy, is it?”
The boy rested his chin on his knees. The woman looked at him and patted his shoulder. “It is, in fact. D’you know his folks?”
“I don’t know anyone.”
“Shame.” The woman pulled in her fishing line and rebaited the hook. She cast it back into the water, and then held a hand out to Liza. “No time like the present. The name’s Finn.”
“Liza.”
The boy sniffed. Finn and Liza looked at him, but he wiped his nose on his sleeve and looked out over the glittering water. Liza waited, expecting Finn to say something, but Rowan’s twin sat in comfortable silence as though unaware of how miserable her two companions were. Finally Liza couldn’t stand it any longer.
“Aren’t you going to ask?”
“Ask what, my dear?”
“Ask—” Liza fished for words. “Ask—if you were Rowan, and I came upon you thinking you were you, and I said what I said, she’d want to know what was wrong and why and who and how.”
Finn chuckled to herself. “I’m not Rowan. Oh! Look out, chums, it’s a big’un!”
The fishing line had gone taut. She wrestled with it for a moment—Tommy, at her side, raised his head, looking mildly interested—the line spun out as the fish, a big one it must’ve been, thrashed and tried to swim off down the stream.
“Grab’er, my boy!” Finn cried. Tommy’s pale, grubby hands joined her immaculate brown ones on the pole. Together they reeled the fish in. It flashed in the sunlight, something like a rainbow trout with a lot more rainbow. Its scales glittered and glowed like jewels, sapphire, coral, mauve, emerald, with a pearly sheen so white it left imprints on Liza’s lids when she closed her eyes.
“Well done, Tommy, well done,” Finn said as the fish wriggled feebly on the store. “That’ll make a fine dinner for us, won’t it?”
She lifted a wicker basket out of the stream from beside her feet and slipped the fish inside. The basket was half full already, with gasping, wriggling fish, smaller than the latest one but no less colorful.
“Now, my boy, after dinner you’ll have to go back, you know.”
The mild excitement drained from the boy’s eyes. He nodded and put his chin back on his knees.
“They’re looking for him,” Liza said. She meant to say who “they” were, but the words “my in-laws” stuck in her throat. “The Smiths,” maybe, but to her that was her and Duncan. She still couldn’t take it in.
Finn seemed to know who she meant. “I’m sure they are. He’s already run off twice since last night, he’s told me. Never fear. I’ll make sure he gets back to them safe and sound. Sometimes a body just needs to get away.”
Liza could’ve put her chin on her own knees at that. She knew.
“Have you ever done?” Finn asked, indicating the fishing rod. Liza shook her head. “Like to learn?”
Liza took the rod and held the line still as Finn baited the hook. The fishing pole was like none she’d ever seen, with a glass rod and a line that seemed to be made from strong, thin strands of glass all woven together. Liza couldn’t imagine how it didn’t break apart in Finn’s hands, but she’d seen far more unbelievable things already.
“There, now, just cast it out into the water and wait for a bite! Might have to move up the bank a bit. I’ve been here all morning.”
But Liza had a bite within a few minutes.
“Pee-hoo!” Finn leapt to her feet, delighted, as Liza grappled with the fish. “Another big’un! My, my. Steady now, easy does it—”
An obsidian fish finally flew from the water and flipped about on the turquoise grass. In the background, Finn was saying something about grabbing it around the gills and removing the hook, but Liza barely heard her. The fish was like none she’d ever seen—as long as her forearm, black as a starless night, glimmering in the sun. Somehow it was even more beautiful than the trout with its rainbow scales.
Tommy had scrambled to his feet and came over to examine her prize. He was taller than she’d expected, beanpole skinny—not unlike Christian, she thought, if Christian were blond and a ten-year-old boy.
“’S’a pearler,” the boy said softly. He tugged at a fingernail with his teeth.
Liza was sure she’d misheard. “A what?”
“A pearler. That’un’s a pearler.”
She still didn’t understand, but Finn came to her rescue. “Black pearlfish, my dear. Tommy’s parents are pearl-fishers, among other things. It works quite differently back in Scotland, I gather, but here they catch pearlfish and harvest the pearls to sell to jewelers or at market.”
“Like this,” Tommy said. He crouched down, stuck his first two fingers in the fish’s gasping mouth, rooted around for a moment, and then pulled out a gleaming freshwater pearl. He wiped it carefully on his shirt and handed it to Liza. “Here y’go.”
It was smoky grey and pear-shaped.
“Oh, no,” Liza said. “You keep it.”
The boy pinkened slightly, shrugged, and stuck the pearl in the pocket of his trousers. Then he returned to his place and his prior position on the bank. The turquoise grass had flattened into the shape of his backside. Finn shook her head.
“What’s wrong with him?” Liza asked softly.
Finn picked up the pearlfish and removed the hook from its lip. “His folks never made it back from the park.”
Like Duncan. Liza went shivery and cold. “Are you sure?”
“The last he saw of them, his father had gathered the little ones and told him to bring them on through. Then he ran off to find the mother, and no one’s seen hide or hair of either one since.”
No wonder the poor children were staying with Duncan’s family. Liza gazed at the blond head, all she could see of Tommy with his face turned toward the stream. She wished she could tell him it would be all right: she knew what it meant to be the oldest, to have to care for a sibling when your parents couldn’t, the crushing weight of premature responsibility. Eventually you grew up and hoped your sister would appreciate it one day.
She’d hardly thought of Melanie since the first day Duncan hadn’t come home. Had her sister realized she was missing? Had she tried to call, in a tizzy about her daughter’s wedding plans? Would she even miss Liza if she did?
The pearlfish was safely in the basket with the others, back underwater. Finn resumed her seat and held the fishing pole out to Liza, who barely felt it in her numb fingers.
Finn glanced at her. “Someone you know?”
Liza didn’t have to ask what she meant.
“My husband,” she said, and in the same way she had with Rowan, she started telling Finn everything. Well, not quite everything. Not all the loneliness or the things that didn’t seem to matter here because they were too far away—her sister, her parents. But she told Finn all about Duncan, his disappearance, how close she’d been to finding him only to have hope of reunion snatched away, replaced with the fear that he may well be dead now.
“And now,” she said at last. She hadn’t started crying this time, at least, but her voice was hoarse. “Now—there’s a family. Sisters, brothers, cousins. Nieces and nephews. Not to mention the parents, and Isadora is—”
“Not kindly,” Finn said.
Understatement, Liza thought. “And I just—I didn’t even know—he’s lied to me, Finn, we’ve been married more than thirty years and he’s been lying to me the whole time. I don’t even know how I’d feel if I saw him now.”
That was it, she thought, that was the problem, the thing that had taken her out of the Smith-Pratts’ house, out of the fair folks’ camp, wandering dazedly along the stream. Because she didn’t know how to feel. Because Duncan was her husband, her partner, and because he was missing, injured, possibly dead, but he was also a liar.
“I don’t know.” She sighed and sat like Tommy, with her chin on her knees. “Maybe I don’t want to find him.”
Finn slipped the fishing pole out of Liza’s fingers; it had been dangling, useless, from her fingertips and was in danger of falling into the stream. “You’re only looking for him out of habit, is that it?”
