I’ve spent my time in this body mulling over what I wanted to be in this world and I could never find a permanent answer until I looked at myself in pictures and mirrors and suddenly the light that had been lost in this eternal darkness of what I call myself finally had an answer that I could accept. I would always complain how if I was a boy I wouldn't have to deal with certain things like, people calling me cute and pretty or telling me how good a dress would look on me or periods. My skin would shudder at those types of comments and it made me feel more resentful against my gender. I didn’t want to conform with the body I was given and it wasn’t just because I was born a girl it was all because I didn’t feel like one. I simply wanted to escape this complexion that everyone around me saw me as. I wanted to find the real me buried inside under all these opinions and criticism. I felt cold like there was no fire in me that could unthaw how I felt until I searched for myself in books and videos online and found the answer I had been seeking since I was in the 5th grade. I had always wondered why I never felt like a girl or why I didn’t fit in with my friends who were girls and talked about feminine topics. I could never get behind it all so, once again I began to mull over and contemplate and research why I felt the way I did. Alas, I was finally free from blood dripping from my skin and tears staining my clothes more than food. I was Transmasculine. It made so much sense now. Why I couldn’t converse with others when feminine topics were brought up, why I felt strange in girls clothing, why feminine compliments made me feel distant from myself. I had now had an answer to my ever longing confusion and won this battle with myself but I still had to face the war. I still had to break through this wall of confusion and fear that these thoughts of mine have built. I still had to face it.
I have to face it.
Overall it is a good story. I feel like this is more of a rant than a story, however I do find it interesting. I don't believe anything needs to be improved, but others may disagree with me. It's an interesting story, and I believe in you. I'd say you could make a collection of short stories as a book. I would read it.
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The text praises the inspiring journey of self-discovery, highlighting how candid sharing of personal experiences reseonates with others amidst societal norms. It inquires about the courage needed to embrace truth and notes the exploration of identity as a demonstration of resilience. The narrative evokes empathy and serves as a beacon of hope for those facing similar challenges, concluding with a question about the intended takeaway for readers.
It sounds like you're navigating some intense feelings around identity and societal expectations. The struggle to reconcile who you are with the roles imposed on you can be incredibly challenging, and it's powerful that you're confronting those emotions head-on. When you describe yourself as "cold" and lacking "fire," it seems like you're expressing a sense of emptiness or frustration that many can relate to, myself included.
Your experiences and refleections resonate with anyone who's felt the weight of societal pressure, making it clear that the journey toward authenticity is not always easy. It takes courage to speak about these feelings, and by doing so, you're opening up important conversations about identity and acceptance.
In this text it highlights the emotional resonance of your experiences with confusion and clarity, emphasizing the ongoing nature of this journey. The narrative underscores challlenges related to self-acceptance and societal acceptance, inspiring others to embrace their true selves. It acknowledges the complexities of the trans experience and commends the individual's vulnerable sharing, which fosters understanding and compasssion in a world often resistant to differences.
I really enjoyed reading this, and I relate to you. I, myself am non-binary and have gone through many phases of underrstanding what exactly that means for me.
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