you no longer care about a single thing , beacause you have seen things in your life that changed the way you think and the way you treat people.
but the problem here is that no matter how hard you try to erase those memories that made you depressed, you just won't be able to move on .
you will never understand why you can't break any rule , like changing someone's attitude.
you will take a cigarette and smoke it like it's the end of your miserable life .
you will try to explain those thoughts, i call them ' black thoughts ' , you will expose them to someone else, this person that only care about his own business , it doesn't make sense to you , cuz you made an effort to talk about your feelings to this special person, but he keeps ignoring you.
it will make you feel crazy.
moving on will be the hardest thing ever.
you will try to fix the problems you make, but every time it will turn into a fight.
your heart will be a mess , your brain will burn your attention, attitude, everything.
those black thoughts will eat all of your body , and day by day you will find yourself in a dark paradise , by that i mean acting like a happy person in a sad world, which isn't good enough for you to survive.
some things will turn your heart off .
you no longer have strength to do anything.
you no longer be able to do things you've done before.
you no longer want to live your miserable life .
i call them black thoughts.