Running does not have one concrete meaning. The word can be used in many different ways: running away from your problems, running a business, running as exercise. All of these are different scenarios, but they are large parts of my life.
Running Away From Your Problems
I seem to always be running away from my problems instead of dealing with them. If you ignore and avoid them, they’ll just disappear. Right? It might not be right, but I always find myself reverting back to this solution. I fear that if I ever stop running, my problems will catch up with me. There are always behind me, waiting until I am weak before they pounce and run right into me.
For example, they might show up on my doorstep in the form of the daughter I left. Of course, she showed up at the most inconvenient time. My business was failing, the very same business that I had left my daughter to start when she was only two. It was the perfect time for my problems to strike. How did I handle the situation? I invited my daughter in and talked to her for one night, listening to her talk about her life and answering questions about mine. I figured I owed her. I had left her for a job after all, a job that seemed to be going nowhere.
She left after a few hours and promised she would visit me soon. However, I knew that would not happen because I was going to do what I do best: run away. This time I would run far, farther than I had ever ran before, to avoid being swallowed by my problems. I would run to Japan, where my technology business could thrive. I had gotten an invitation from a business partner a few weeks back, but I hadn’t been interested in the offer until now. It was now a matter of running away from my problems that had become too close for comfort.
Running a Business
I had started to dream about running my own business at a young age. The prospect of all that power and money eventually devoured me. I knew that being an entrepreneur was the job for me. I was always exceptionally good at coding and understanding computers, so it made sense to make a business involving technology. That was the easy part. I may know my way around computers, but I’m horrible at basically everything else. Managing money, finding a location for the office, hiring people, and even simply coming up with a name for the business. Now you can understand why my business is failing. I’m surprised it didn’t get this bad earlier on. I started it over 15 years ago, barely able to pay the bills even then.
Japan was my only hope to keep the business that I care about more than my own child from disappearing forever. Mr. Watanabe was offering to help get the company back on its feet if he got 30% of the profit it made each year. I was sceptical at first and was not planning on taking the offer. I wasn’t ready to leave the town I had lived in for my whole life. However, that was before my daughter came over. Once I saw her, I knew that I needed to pack up and leave immediately. And so I did. I caught an early flight and flew to Japan, hoping for another fresh start.
Running As Exercise
Mr. Watanabe turned out to be a wonderful business partner. Business was booming after a few months of hard work and A LOT of money spent. Mr. Watanabe also proved to be an excellent partner in life. That’s right, I am now Mrs. Watanabe and have been for a couple years now. My life is finally on track. I have a stupendous husband, a prosperous business, and I’ve even taken up running. It’s a good hobby that allows you to decompress and just think. On most runs, I think about how lucky I am and try to think of new marketing ideas for my software company. Unfortunately, they are also times when I am having a bad day. Sometimes, my train of thought will lead to a darker place, like today. Today, all I can think about is the guilt I feel. I abandoned a poor little girl without a second thought. I probably wouldn’t be thinking about her at all if there wasn’t the slim chance that she could somehow find me and make my life a living hell. I am always running away from the ghosts of my past and am showing no sign of stopping. They are everywhere, even in my dreams. It’s too late for me to change, but you still have time. Please, don’t go down the same dreadful path.
Here’s my advice to you: don’t start running, because once you do, you can never stop.