I used to play on the computer a lot when I was 10. I also happened to be a complete weirdo and outcast at school, so most of my social life was over the internet. I got really into MMO games where you could make an avatar then just stand around and chat with other players. One of these games, I practically devoted my life to. The only reason for that was Aaliyah.
Her online name was Aaliyah Cullen, and she was really into the whole vampire thing. I was really just looking for a friend, or anyone I could talk to that wouldn't bully me. I met her in the "New Players" room. Neither of us were new players, but we were both looking for someone to talk to. She was the nicest person I had ever spoke to over the internet. Even better, we actually talked consistently, she didn't just disappear like every other friend I had made on these websites.
Her and I had an in-game relationship, and we were great friends. We role-played about saving eachother's lives in dramatic situations and so forth. We built such a strong relationship that we would log on every day and ask each other how their day was. The only issue was that I had been lying to her ever since the beginning. I was 10, and she was 17.
I had told her that I was 16 when we first met because that was my usual fake age. I really just liked the number 16. But I felt horrible because I couldn't tell her that she had been spending all of this amazing time with a 10-year-old. I guess you could say I grew up differently, a lot of people have told me that I acted older than my actual age.
We would spend time together at the park, the theater, or some random restaurant in the game. So much time, in fact, that I had began to devote practically my entire existence to her. Whenever I saw the username "XxAaliyahxX" I was alive. But I didn't devote my time to the game, I devoted my time to her exclusively. She gave me her email address and we would talk over email for a while.
I had no idea how big of a piece of my life she was until she disappeared, too. Just like all the others, but this time it was different. This was someone that I had already spent so much time with, someone that I trusted. I told myself that she wasn't the kind of person to just leave without saying anything. After I stopped seeing her in the game I tried getting ahold of her by email. She never answered any of my messages. It went from talking like normal to not talking at all in a split instant.
I told myself that she might have gotten grounded, just so that I wouldn't be so worried about her. To fill in the empty space between talking to her, I searched for her social medias. I found one of her accounts and instantly began reading though it. One of her posts were from after she stopped talking to me, so she hadn't been grounded. I sent a message to her social media account, trying to play it cool by saying something to the effect of, "Hey, it's been a couple of days. What's goin' on? I just wanted to check in and make sure that you were okay." The truth was that I was sad and angry. I felt like she had betrayed me by refusing to answer any of my messages.
I was 10 years old, but I had good intentions. Apparently, she found out how young I was because I had made a Facebook account with a picture of myself on it. When she found out that I wasn't 16, she began thinking I was stalker and started filing reports against me, making sure that I couldn't see anything she posted. Luckily, the police never came after me, but it took me years to get over Aaliyah.