It had been a long hard day at school for Josh that day. As he was thinking back on his day he realized he hadn't seen Rosalie at all; it was still a good day though, he didn't know why he was so happy, he just was. He was even happier now that the day had finally ended. Josh sighed as he walked in the door. 'Ahh finally home,’ he said out loud with a smile. Even his parents commented on how happy he was. Josh said nothing but smirked as he walked up to his room to put his bag away and get changed. After he had changed his clothes he pulled out his ear phones, lay on his bed and just listened to music for the rest of the afternoon. He started thinking about Rosalie's absence today, it was strange she was never away so now that he was thinking about it he got rather worried. He was contemplating whether or not to ring her now and apologize for what he had said to her last night or to wait till after dinner. His mood had now changed a little but he was still happy. He decided to ring her now but just as he unlocked his phone his parents called him out for dinner.
Josh was sitting at the table getting ready for dinner, waiting for his familt to be ready to eat he decided to send her a quick text, soon after he got a phone call, hoping it was Rosalie he picked up his phone and looked at the screen, an unknown number. Josh stared at the number for awhile trying to figure out who it was, reluctantly he answered it. It was Rosalie's parents. They started explaining to Josh that Rosalie had been in a car crash that morning and that he would never be able to see her again. It took a while for it to sink in that they meant she was dead. He tried to get his head around the news, gone. Forever.
Tears streamed down his face as they told him more. What a way to ruin a good day, he had lost all of his appetite. His parents asked him what had happened and who it was once he had hung up but he said nothing. No reply. Just tears.
He just wanted to climb back into bed and hibernate for a while. Away from everyone. He felt like he had no reason to live anymore, he blamed himself for her death. "If I hadn't said what I did last night during that stupid fight she would still be alive right now." kept running through his head, over and over again. That night he tried to sleep but he just couldn't. He kept thinking about how she could be fine one day and gone the next. He couldn't get very comfortable either, physically or emotionally.
After a while he just gave up, got out of bed and walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. "Why, why today... Why did this have to happen to me!? Nothing good ever happens to me, except for her, but now she is gone too and it’s all my fault!" he cried angrily and punched the mirror. Pain shot through his hand and up his arm. A tingling feeling. It felt horrible. He looked down at his hands, there was blood everywhere. The tears were burning his eyes. He couldn't see. He just wanted all this suffering to end. He wanted to end his crappy life. Right there, right now. He washed all the blood off himself and washed his face, he had red puffy eyes from crying so much. It hurt to breath, everything was just so painful. He sighed and walked out into the kitchen and grabbed a pen and paper and started writing a suicide note, he just couldn't take it anymore. Tears splattered onto the paper smudging the writing, but it was still readable. Once he had finished with the note he left it on the bench and slid the door open just enough for him to get out, he slipped out the door into the cold crisp air.
A tiny shiver ran down his spine. Just the thought of what he was about to do terrified him. “No thinking. Just do it,” He said to himself. He sighed again and walked into the shed and found some rope. Very shakily he started tying the rope to his neck. Getting ready for the end. “This is it, no more suffering” he thought. He climbed on a nearby bench and tied the rope to some type of hook on the roof. He jumped but the rope snapped and he fell to the ground hitting his head hard on the ground. Everything went black.
There was a tap running in the kitchen, someone had woken up to get a drink, and saw the note. Josh's dad skimmed through the note to see what it was about, he skipped to the end of it and the words popped straight out at him; Good bye, you won't have to worry about me anymore.. I'll be gone, I love you all and I'm sorry. After he read this the note slipped out of his handslanding on the floor in front of him, shocked he rushed around the house searching for him hoping he hadn't already done something stupid. He looked all over the house and noticed to back door was slightly open he ran out into the yard. Not seeing Josh anywhere he rushed into the shed and found Josh, lying on the ground. Still and silent. He started panicking thinking he was gone. He picked him up and cradled him in his arms, tears rolled down his cheeks, pulling his limp son closer. All of a sudden he felt a shallow breath on his cheek.
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