Have you ever sat in bed at night
restless and unable to sleep,
staring out into the dark,
your lips a thin line against your pale face,
and shivered, haunted by thoughts
of a certain someone
whose face you cannot forget?
A person known for but an instant
who in that moment
stole your heart,
and plagues you now
with hopes and dreams of times
to never be.
Have you ever closed your eyes and in your mind seen his face:
immaculate in beauty
with eyes so deep and blue you could lose yourself in their depths,
bleached blonde hair tousled just so,
and a smile so perfect you could never hope to match it?
And did you not then conjure up a sliver of hope,
feeble as it may be, to last you through the night,
and wish for a day that he would call you his own?
Have you ever dreamed for days on end
of a time when you could be together,
wanting to forget and move on,
but at the same time giving him your heart?
Have you ever thought of him
and realized that he doesn’t even know you,
no matter how much you wish it were not so,
and given up hope of him ever being yours,
and felt a coldness in your heart no amount of warmth could shake,
and sobbed into your pillow until you fell asleep?
And at night as you lay there alone
despairing more than ever,
did you feel your heart shatter,
broken by what could have been
but never was?
Have you ever wondered why such a stranger
has the power to make your heart melt
simply by looking in your direction?
Or why talking to him causes
your heart to pound in your chest
and nervous butterflies to flutter uncontrollably?
Perhaps love is one big joke,
and an unseen master is sitting high above,
pulling on invisible strings like those of a marionette
and laughing as you fall head over heels in love
with someone who will never return the feeling.
But perhaps not.
Perhaps fate has another path chosen for you
based on an unseen plan
beyond your understanding
and your simple crush will turn into something
much bigger than you could have ever imagined.
Perhaps
meeting him
was
your destiny.
